I'm in it to win it
Thursday, May 26, 2011
I have chased a thin body for all of my life. The chase goes on. My weight has been the dominant issue in my life ALWAYS. I have ALWAYS been on a diet. I have ALWAYS tried every conceivable method at hand to achieve weight loss. I still ALWAYS watch everything I eat , every day. I have ALWAYS felt happy or sad depending on what the scale said.
I USED to be able to drop 100 pounds in a year or less. I can't do that anymore. It's just physically impossible. Even when I go down a few pounds, the next week the scale goes back up again. This is the third week in a row that I have gained a few pounds. I lost 7 in April and put on 10 in May. I USED to get discouraged and upset, and a few weeks ago, I did just that. I tried really hard, and then blew it and gained again instead of losing. This week the same thing happened.
At yesterday's Weight Watcher meeting a dear friend of mine "eulogized" my never-give-up efforts and the leader awarded me a "BRAVO" sticker. I felt very proud, and grateful to my friend for her love, and her understsnding of my struggle. I USED to take these mixed up emotions home and eat over them. Now I said,"Thank you" for the support and praise and with deep gratitude I went on with my life. I ate a sane lunch with my WW friends, came home and took a nap, ate a small sane dinner and went to bed watching TV.
Today I went about my day like any other day. I gave it over to God, had phone prayer with my prayer partner, and went to my crafts group meeting. I brought a healthy lunch for myself, and healthy homemade muffins as a snack for my handicapped group of friends, (although they decided to eat cake instead!!).
Now I'm back home, and still breathing, but not binging, or going off the deep end because of yesterday's weight gain. That's a miracle, because, as I told the WW group yesterday, the three weeks of small weight gains would have deemed this QUITTING TIME in the past.
Now that I'm eating healthy, gain or lose, it's no big deal, and I'm in it to win it, because my health is the prize now, not the size of my clothes. As I blogged recently, mostly as a reminder to myself, it's one day, one meal at a time. Stay cool stay calm, get healthy.