I'm in it to win it

Thursday, May 26, 2011

I have chased a thin body for all of my life. The chase goes on. My weight has been the dominant issue in my life ALWAYS. I have ALWAYS been on a diet. I have ALWAYS tried every conceivable method at hand to achieve weight loss. I still ALWAYS watch everything I eat , every day. I have ALWAYS felt happy or sad depending on what the scale said.
I USED to be able to drop 100 pounds in a year or less. I can't do that anymore. It's just physically impossible. Even when I go down a few pounds, the next week the scale goes back up again. This is the third week in a row that I have gained a few pounds. I lost 7 in April and put on 10 in May. I USED to get discouraged and upset, and a few weeks ago, I did just that. I tried really hard, and then blew it and gained again instead of losing. This week the same thing happened.
At yesterday's Weight Watcher meeting a dear friend of mine "eulogized" my never-give-up efforts and the leader awarded me a "BRAVO" sticker. I felt very proud, and grateful to my friend for her love, and her understsnding of my struggle. I USED to take these mixed up emotions home and eat over them. Now I said,"Thank you" for the support and praise and with deep gratitude I went on with my life. I ate a sane lunch with my WW friends, came home and took a nap, ate a small sane dinner and went to bed watching TV.
Today I went about my day like any other day. I gave it over to God, had phone prayer with my prayer partner, and went to my crafts group meeting. I brought a healthy lunch for myself, and healthy homemade muffins as a snack for my handicapped group of friends, (although they decided to eat cake instead!!).
Now I'm back home, and still breathing, but not binging, or going off the deep end because of yesterday's weight gain. That's a miracle, because, as I told the WW group yesterday, the three weeks of small weight gains would have deemed this QUITTING TIME in the past.
Now that I'm eating healthy, gain or lose, it's no big deal, and I'm in it to win it, because my health is the prize now, not the size of my clothes. As I blogged recently, mostly as a reminder to myself, it's one day, one meal at a time. Stay cool stay calm, get healthy.
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    I have battled my weight my entire life too. Starting when I was 8 years old, I noticed I was getting a little pudgy, and I pulled the belt tight on the homemade dress I was wearing, to try and appear thinner. I'm sure that looked good??
    Today, for me too has been a good one. I had bad days both Sunday and Monday. But I am proud because today I stopped that over-eating trend. Sunday I made a big barbecue dinner for all my kids, and ate too much. Monday--was the leftovers! Today, I got smart, had oatmeal for breakfast with a banana. For lunch I had fish and grapes and some veggies in low-fat ranch. No snacks this afternoon--YET! But every single waking minute is a struggle. It's a struggle worth fighting though, and I plan to keep going as long as I live. Because my very health depends upon it.
    3470 days ago
    Great attitude as always. I am willing to bet that even on your 'off' days they are so much healthier than in the past. I know overall your doing very well. Remember we were not put here on earth to fret over our food and weight but to enjoy life with family, friends, fun, happiness and laughter. Let's pray, sing and dance with life. Don't make fun of my giggles as I wiggle and let's play. lol
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  • JILL313
    I sure admire your positive attitude!! Accepting our ups and downs in life including trying to loose weight is just part of Being Human. Like you, I've learned not to "beat" myself up when the scale goes up but just get more determined to make the next meal a healthy one. . .I think you are doing so well and I know when you get older it doesn't seem to come off quickly as metabolism, medications, etc. has really slowed up how easily I can loose weight. Continue for Healthy Journey. God Bless.


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    You can't go wrong with that attitude! Good for you.

    3475 days ago
    You can do it! It's a struggle sometimes, I know! My problem is munching too much. So I have to play little games with myself, or I just simply say to myself, "Stop! You don't have to eat this! You are in control. The food is not in control of you!" I'm not perfect, but at least today has been a good day so far. (Note I say "so far"...the day isn't over yet!)
    3475 days ago
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