LILBLKDRESS09

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I am starting to see a pattern

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

I don't consider myself to be lazy, but at times I can lag motivation. I also don't consider myself a quitter but at times I can put off.

I am sure that we can all say that these things are true about ourselves. It took a comment from my finance to slap me back into reality. I admire his courage to be so honest with me. ( knowing that I could blow up in his face)

" You don't push yourself"

He said this to me as I sat there and complained that he was losing weight faster then me. ( yes he has already lost 5 lbs in two weeks and eats like a horse) I am not going to lie at first I was furious. I wanted to run my palm across his face. I mean couldn't he see that I am killing myself....measuring everything, logging everything, counting calories in and out! But instead of blowing up. I walked away ( smart girl)

and as I walked and looked at clothes at Target. It hit me. Like a bolt of lightening. I am comfortable. I don't try...( at least to push myself) I am giving the bare minimum of my determination. and I know why

Because once again I find myself putting others first. I get so wound up on whats going on around me that I forget to look at what is going on inside. I ignore the feelings and go on auto piolit. But I am done! Done with the self hate. Time to move on..... So today marks day one of june goals. I am going to cook all the dinners at home, I already have my grocery list and recipes picked out.

I also weighed in this morning... 208.8lbs I am upset but not shocked. I haven't been good to myself lately...Hence the nachos last night. I also took measurements. I am going to weigh in on the 30th and measure inches.

goals:
1. run a 5k in 45 minutes ( I timed my first run this weekend 1hr and 4 min)
2. start and complete 30 days of the shred!
3.Get to 200 or 199lbs
4. lose 2 inches ( don't care from where just want them gone)
5. Don't lose momentum ( so I am going to blog once a day)

so june here I come!
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  • -POOKIE-
    Good luck with your goals.

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    3608 days ago
  • GRAMLORI
    Hi Angela, I'm a SPfriend of your mom's.....I hear you....it's so easy to put others first, but the old adage is true.....ya gotta love yourself! I'll be blogging about that in a bit, but I just wanted to say, YOU GO, GIRL!!! You're not alone in this....and your daughter is adorable!!!

    Just looking at your profile....make that BOTH daughters are adorable!! Your mom must just love having them around!!

    OK......THREE GIRLS!!!! lol any more going to show up??? or maybe I should have saved my comments till I read your whole page....lol
    3608 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/1/2011 11:48:57 AM
  • DIANA_IS_BACK
    Wow.... like mother like daughter, right? I think you wrote my blog for me (with the exception of the 200 or 199, but I will get there)

    Thank you for always being brave enough to share your journey, struggles and all. You are my hero Angela!
    3609 days ago
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