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I've HAD IT!

Saturday, June 04, 2011

I tend to stumble along this path, sometimes doing great & sometimes only doing it about half-assed. So, the last couple of weeks my problem is getting enough calories so I'm not really fussing about that. Its the heat, I know it. I have started using slimfast for those days I just cant face eating. I bought bananas to put in the icebook for cold fruit. You get the idea.
Now, between the time I left the gym because I couldnt afford membership and now, I have only did what I said above--not much in the way of weight loss. That meant I gained. My clothes got tight. I have clothes I cant fit into anymore. The ones I can still wear, snug and makes me have a monster size muffin top. Eww. Yesteriday, I was going through clothes looking for something comfortable to wear. Not this, not that. too tight-not long enough (idea i'm hiding my belly--not). I got mad! I've had enough of not fitting into my own clothes. Not like I can buy more with our budget--not that I want to anyway!
My half-assed attempt at losing weight has mostly centered around calories. Exercise is hit and miss. I find myself getting jealous at some friends that started out bigger than me and yet they are totally kicking ass on the weight loss. I decided to let them inspire me instead. I know what they are doing. Watching the calories and working out and working HARD!! You know what, they started bigger than me and still stuck to exercising! I remember reading how much it hurt my friend to move when she first began. What? I'm I scared of a little pain? How about the pain that hits me when I look in the mirror? How about the pain from arthritis in both knees and knowing that all this weight is killing them?? How about the pain that comes from being fat, not fitting into clothes. By god there are things I want and I'm going after them. No more sleeping pills that drag me out and make me sleep late. Exercising in the mornings before it gets hot. Breakfast! Water and more water. If they can do it being bigger than me and now smaller--by god so can I! My clothes are going to fit and then become way too big for me. Thats my goal!!
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  • LYNNBELTONLOSES
    GIRL??? YAY YOU, I WAS SOOOOO HAPPY TO READ THIS COMMING FROM YOU. YOU KNOW WHAT YOU GOTTA DO HONEY SO NOW JUST DO IT!!!
    LOSE THIS WEIGHT DAMNENT!!!!
    I'M ON YAHOO IM IF YOU NEED ME HONEY.
    YAHOO IM IS:
    belton_lynn

    TAKE TO YOU SOON IF YOU READY...

    SINCERELY,
    YOUR NEW WEIGHTLOSS GURLFRIEND,
    ~lynn
    (yahoo im: belton_lynn)
    3428 days ago
  • FAB_IN_11
    Debra, you know my story almost identical to yours~ Lets kick some butt~ You can do it, We can do it! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3430 days ago
  • MDBUTTERFLY
    I hit the point recently...got disgusted with myself...gained 10 pounds...clothes tight...blah blah blah. Have only begun making some progress in these last couple days.

    You got this Deb! I know its there, just keep fighting through it...for it...FOR YOU!!! emoticon
    3431 days ago
  • KAMAPERRY
    YOU GO, DEBRA!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3432 days ago
  • PATTIE253
    I totaly know how you feel. I was doing SP a few years ago then slowly dropped off. 2010 I went thruough a very bad year with skin cancer on my nose in March, then knee surgery on my knee in April. It has taken me almost a year to recover from the knee surgery. My best friend of 43 years died in November. She had a long fight with cancer and the last few months we were going over once a week with a meal for the family. When the knee started to do better I decided it was time to get back to SP and loose the weight. I'm tired of feeling this way and not finding clothes that fit and look nice. I am going to do it this time!
    3432 days ago
  • SOMEMANSDREAM
    Ha ha--should have proof read my blog. "icebook"--try icebox!
    3432 days ago
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