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Pulling the trigger

Friday, June 10, 2011

Last night a dear friend called and asked me to change the venue for my next week's birthday luncheon with my Weight Watcher friends because the lunch special at the restaurant had gone up in price. Being the accommodating person that I am, I said, "Of course. It doesn't really matter to me," and proceeded to agree to another reataurant that we all really like anyway. Whoaaaa, girl, not so fast!! Within moments of getting off the phone, I was back out in my kitchen preparing the first of several peanut butter and Rye bread sandwiches, bringing each one seperately back to my bedroom to eat in front of my TV, and then going back for another. Then I began to recognize my behavior and backtrack to my point of "hunger" and landed at the phone call. I remembered that I was totally full and satisfied for the night when I headed off to bed, but then came the phone call. Well, my dear friend may as well have been holding a gun to my heart because the trigger got pulled and the memory shot a hole in a piece of my old baggage. the old suitcase filled with past memories and hurts that triggered so much emotional pain and binge eating. It seemed I was always being asked to lower my sights, to accept second best, to "make do" ( how did my motto become "making lemonade out of lemons???) and settle for what was good for everyone else but me. Well, you just never know when the past is going to smack you right in the face. I had agreed to change restaurants from my neck up, but in my heart I was being asked to change my hopes and desires for the good of all. (As the oldest child in a family of seven children, the sacrifices came fast and furious and it was a way of life.) I prayed about it, and then recognized what was going on. I talked to God and myself and saw that the present accommodation had nothing to do with what happened before, and since my friends would make the same concession for me, and I really love these gals, I could change plans and it would be ok. I could live with it and be happy. NOW, I am happy. And when I really got calm, I recognized that part of the spirit of our wonderful group is that we all look out for one another, and this is just a little change that I can make, not because I have to, but because I want to. The important thing is that we will all be together and have fun, and I will open presents and we will all eat cake and have a special time together. Oh! How I praise God for His wisdom, and the maturity He has taught and allowed me to have.
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  • STARTINGATSIXTY
    Love this blog! To understand what triggers us to overeat is what it takes to succeed on this journey. Thanks to this blog, I will take a honest looks at my triggers. Thank you so much for a very enlightening blog. emoticon
    3453 days ago
  • BITTYGIRL51
    Great blog and wonderful insight. Kudos to you! You've got your head in the game, girl! Way to go! emoticon
    3454 days ago
  • IOWAGRAMMA
    It must feel good to you to be able to recognize and acknowledge all the issues that went into the response to your friend's call. Good work! Wishing you continued blessings in this journey. Jeannie
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    3454 days ago
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    You used wisdom with this...thank yu for sharing!!
    3454 days ago
  • FISHING88
    You are wise to slow down and ask yourself questions instead of just eating. God definitely talks to us -- especially when we slow down and listen!
    3454 days ago
  • JILL313
    It does sound like your friend asking you to change the restaurant for your Birthday Celebration did remind you of all the concessions you've made for your family and friends. . .So you emotionally turned to food like I tend to do! But you caught yourself in time and didn't end up having a binge session so I'd say that was a big success for you. I know I'm also an emotional eater and will turn to food if I'm upset, angry, and for almost any emotional reason. We learn as we go a long that overeating doesn't solve anything but does make us unhealthy and unhappy. Good Going!

    Hugs,

    Jill
    3454 days ago
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