Thursday, June 23, 2011
Whoops, got busy and didn't blog! A friend reminded me so here I am!!!
Ugh, the business trip isn't going as planned. I'm eating well, but working so much I'm not tracking food. Drinking too much diet pop, which I never drink at home. I did get to the "fast food" point today but actually got a grilled chicken sandwich and fries. Not as bad as it could be, so I need to be proud of that.
HOWEVER...two things happened today that really made me think. First, I wore a skirt. And caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. Ugh. Then, I was sent this pic of me and my niece walking our Build-A-Bear dogs on roller skates through the mall.
Ugh. There is just no other thing to say. I feel like $%)€6. It feels like I am constantly, constantly on a diet and yet I continue to gain weight.
That saying "Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results is the definition of insanity" really applies to me.
I am doing the same effing thing over and over: staying on track for a day and slipping for two. Back on track for a day, and slipping for 3. Being on track for a week then going on a trip. I'm sick of it. I have to stop this. I just don't know what to do.
I mean I do: get up tomorrow, drink my water, exercise, track my food and eat within my calorie guidelines. BUT HOW DO I ACTUALLY DO THAT???