Coming through, Self - Get out of my way!
Sunday, June 26, 2011
I did a lot of self Spring Cleaning this year. Hesitantly, I ultimately decided to see a doctor because of how fast my weight was increasing. My cholesterol was fine, my BP was 117/76 (which, for my weight... I have no idea how that happened, except maybe due to my walking), and all other life-threatening things were, well, not life threatening. I have no sign of diabetes or borderline diabetes, etc. She had me take a bunch of tests, which then showed that my feminine hormones were even MORE screwed up than the last time my system went wonky (in high school). So I am supposed to start meds, which I will, but haven't yet.
I want to lose this weight. If nothing else, I want to get back to where I was when I was doing well. And I'm going to do this part without medication. I refuse to believe that the only way I have a chance is to use medication to help me lose weight. I want to lose some of the weight, and then take the meds, so that I can honesly say that I am taking the medication to fix my hormone system - not as a weight-loss helper.
I am tired of using crutches, I am tired of holding myself back, and I am tired of letting the wrong parts of my body control how successful I am. Who is the master in all of this? I have to be able to control my own body, and I am GOING to be the master of my own body.
I'm going to be experimenting with various successful diet plans over the course of the next two months (eg, Weight Watchers point system) to see which I can best relate to, and which seems to work best for my body. I am also getting back into walking, which I really have not done since 6/7/11 when I started my new office job. I WILL lose this weight, do you hear me?! That was mostly spoken to myself to make sure I heard myself, but pipe in if you wish.
I am sick and tired of the games and of the back and forth. I need to get this done this time.
First goal: 5 lbs this week. Normally I'd say 2 lbs, but I know that the first week always sees huge movement, and I'm not going to go easy on myself. I have not been drinking water or walking lately, so 5 lbs should be no problem, since I am now drinking water (as of last night) and monitoring it, and walking (I have a walk date with a friend who also NEEDS to lose weight).
Second goal: 15 lbs by July 30th. Again, I'd usually say 10 because it's a month (and a couple days) away, but I'm adding my first week goal to it.
Third goal: 25 lbs by August 26th, when I leave for my friend's wedding.
Fourth goal: 51 lbs by December 31st (avg. of less than 10 lbs a month)
After that, we'll see where I am and how I need to adjust.
Self, you will no longer get in my way. Move!
to make the Consistency Award from July - December straight
to make my fitness goals from July - December straight
to walk over 250 miles by the end of the year, starting today