Wednesday, July 06, 2011
I have allowed circumstances and people to throw me off my quest toward becoming the healthiest person I can be. First Greg's health sunk down to the point that I thought I'd lose him on several hospital stays. Praise God - he's stayed out of the hospital for almost 10 months so far!!! He's still appallingly weak and needs to take a couple of naps daily, but he's healthier than he had been. But the thought of losing him sends me to food - I need to stop doing this to myself.
I've also allowed my adult sons to discourage me and I've comforted myself with food. I must take my self-respect back and not allow them to have the power to hurt me.
I have re-gained 30 pounds. HOLY COW!!!! I'd worked so hard getting those pounds off and now I have to do it yet again. I know with my Father's help I can do this - He doesn't want me to continue down this negative path. Today I start again finding my joy in the Lord.