Still Thinking About the Snap
Sunday, July 24, 2011
The past few days I've been really dwelling on my experience this past week and my subsequent blog.
I'm not sure if I have made any changes. YET.
But I am determined. I know I've said that before. But if I need to read that blog every single day in order to remember the feelings that came up this week, I will.
I tend to live in the present, to feel that what I'm feeling right now this minute, is the worst feeling ever..or the best. Which means that I like the instant gratification of eating and don't look at the consequences. (It also means I just can't stay mad for long-lucky for my husband!)
I'm no longer going to look at the present moment when it comes to food. I'm going to look into the future. Food is fuel to make me have a future....and if I keep shoving crap in my mouth I will have a future full of diabetes, blindness, kidney failure and an early death. "Obesity" on my death certificate under cause of death would be the final judgement of a life lived in vain.
I am starting to live. Snap.