358 days to go :)
Monday, August 01, 2011
Last Monday I started a huge goal. Based on an experience I had (see the Snap blog for an explanation) I decided for one year, to actually eat well and exercise, learn what hunger feels like, what satiated feels like, the difference between full and stuffed, to learn to feel my feelings instead of eat them and actually give it a true gung ho try at this lifestyle change instead of my usual eat-well-for-3-days-stuff-myse
od-choices crazy-making system that HASN'T worked.
Did anyone understand that sentence?
One week in...I exercised every single day this week. That was a personal challenge I set myself just to see if I could do it. I don't plan on doing that every week..in fact I'm a little exhausted cuz I have been pushing myself. I will be taking a rest day tomorrow or Wednesday.
I tracked my food every single day. I ate very close to my calorie limits every day.
Yesterday I was very hungry. I ate steak and veggies for dinner and it really helped, but wanted "something" more so I had about a 1/2 cup of a blizzard. I went over my calorie limits yesterday. On the plus side, I have exercised so much that I think my body truly wanted/needed more nutrition. AND..instead of having an entire blizzard, I had a 1/2 cup. OH! Don't think I'm calling the blizzard NUTRITION...the steak put me over my calories but it was grass fed, hand raised, no antibiotic very lean steak..it was the nutrition my body needed.
This truly is just a meandering boring blog today.
But I'll have to set some parameters for myself. I DID go over my calorie limits yesterday. I DID eat 'junk' yesterday. But I didn't lose control. I didn't eat until I was stuffed. This doesn't mean I blew my year goal. In my head is sorta feels that way. I need to set parameters so I can feel successful when I slip up.
What I don't want to do is go back to over eating 3 days a week and starting over every Monday. I don't want to weigh 3 pounds down on Wednesday and then spend the entire rest of the week/weekend gaining back the three pounds. I want to truly do what is best for my body and myself and LOSE WEIGHT, not lose and gain the same damn 10 pounds-which is what I have been doing the past year.
I don't want to make 'excuses' that it is a special day so I need to over eat today. There were two staff birthdays last week. We ordered treats. I ate treats, I planned for them and tracked them and ate sparingly the rest of the day because of it. THAT is a lifestyle that I want to have.
I want to listen to my body and not my emotions.
So..one week down I think I have succeeded, and I see how I need to set some parameters for what this year of actually DOING IT means...