I'd Like To Report A Mugging, Please
Tuesday, August 02, 2011
Yesterday the strangest thing happened. I was just walking along at work yesterday when I got mugged and rolled.
I didn't get taken for money, I got taken for my self respect, my willpower, and my pride.
I could have warded off this attack. I could feel my attacker sneaking up behind me all day. My defenses were down from exercising 7 days without a break, not getting enough sleep and work issues. Stress only had to tap me on my shoulder and I turned around to be knocked on my butt and taken for all I had.
Stress took me and left me with no coping skills. Nothing I could do but eat and drink my feelings. I spent 3 hours last night drinking and venting ...and eating.
Today I feel bloated and nasty. I have no outward bruises to show from my fight with my attacker, but my soul is bruised from this defeat.
There is nothing to do but to get up and move on. Luckily self respect, willpower and pride are not commodities that can be stolen from me forever. I can reach into myself and find them again in abundant supply.
However, I am going to be so much more aware of muggings that can happen at work or at home. Or anywhere, really.
Luckily, I now know what my attacker looks like. Stress, that attacker that stole so much from me last night, I KNOW you. I can be aware, I can make sure that Stress cannot sneak up on me. And if my attacker comes at me I can exercise, I can sleep, I can read, I can do things to AVOID STRESS.
The only problem is that my attacker looks exactly like me.