Taking my first step forward!
Friday, August 05, 2011
Dread. A feeling that makes me squirm, procrastinate, twiddle my thumbs, and eat. The thought of stepping on the scale after a few weeks of no exercise and bad food choices made me do all of these except the last, eat. Normally, I would disregard those feelings and allow some frozen pizza (or an entire frozen pizza) to bury them in the back of my mind. But, that first step was very hard to take and I need to give myself credit for it, which is why I decided to start my blog. To my unpleasant surprise (or should I say not-so-surprise :/ ) the number I read was the highest number I have seen in front of my toes....ever. After feeling angry, disappointed, and disgusted with myself, I tried to focus on the fact that I need to start somewhere; the sooner I start, the less I'll have to lose overall, and the sooner I will be happier and healthier. From now on, I am going to pay attention to what I eat and hold myself accountable. I have changed my mentality from "living to eat" to "eating to live!"