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IFG...would you PLEASE SHUT UP!!!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

I haven't had an issue with my inner fat girl in a couple of months...my inner skinny girl has gotten so loud that she normally drowns IFG's ramblings out...but I think ISG is still mad at me for yesterday's HIIT session, and is taking the day off. :)

I have a horrible attitude today...I woke up with it, and IFG is keeping it going. I'm FURIOUS that I'm not the athlete today that I was as a teenager...which I know intellectually is just silly, but emotionally, I'm raging. I have the internal will to be a Olympic triathlete, but my body is just not cooperating with me anymore. I drug my carcass through the functional training Death Camp this afternoon...and I can't stop thinking about how HARD it is...and that it "shouldn't" be. We don't do anything earth shattering in the class, in fact, most of the things we do in the class were things I USED TO consider a "warm up". But after a good 14 years of random sloth, mountain climbers and burpees are now so challenging that I almost can't make it through the session. And again, I'm just really, really caked off about it. IFG has been a voice in the back of my head all morning telling me that I will never be an athlete again. She wants me to give up and go to McDonalds. She wants me to throw away my exercise equipment and DVD's and invest in a chocolate fondue fountain and mu mu's. I'm thisclose to listening to her today...
It's been roughly 4.5 months since I started exercising and trying to eat well again, and I knew going into "it" that I was going to need at least a year to get down to "regular" out of shape, if not more...but today stupid loud mouthed IFG keeps telling me that it's never going to happen, that I haven't come that far, and that I should just resign myself to being the "fat mom" for the rest of my life...
For now, I'm holding on, but just barely...I'm going to try to stay as busy as I can for the rest of the day to keep myself out of the kitchen, and I'm planning an early bedtime so that I don't succumb to a night binge (the urge is doing more than just lurking today), and cross my fingers that tomorrow will be a better day!! But in the meantime, IFG...SHUT UP!!!!!!!
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  • GREENTOMKAT
    I understand what you mean. I just want to play softball and soccer! That has always been an option, but right now it's not and I'm going to have to work really hard to get back into it. It is all so worth it!!!!! Come on ISG! I'm rooting for you!
    3324 days ago
  • JDUBLANKO
    Well everyone has said what I would have said...so I'm just going to tell you that I might pee my pants, I've been laughing so hard... emoticon
    3325 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10464769
    You can do it!! I know you are strong!

    My Inner Fat girl is annoying lately. I shut her up by jogging.


    You inspire me so much!!

    Karen
    3325 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4534979
    I think it is safe to say that we all have those IFG lurking around in our heads and our hearts. Mine is always trying to trick my husband into saying he thinks I have gained weight. She is a conniving little wench indeed. It is hard to hear the good things when we are bombarded with the bad. However, those you inches you dropped will help SHUT ol' girl up.

    Keep shredding girlfriend! emoticon
    3325 days ago
  • ROOBEARZ
    Die IFG, die!!!! JK ; ) But those IFGs can be EVIL!! You are doing so well and are such an inspiration to the rest of us! I just know ISG will kick IFG's butt!!! Perhaps ISG needs a little more of the protein or supplements you'd previously discussed? emoticon
    3326 days ago
  • PAULKNUTH
    I don't have a IFG.

    I guess that's a good thing!

    My IFM isn't critical but does suggest things like cheesecake, chicken wings, pizza and provides a lot of really logical arguments for eating them.
    3326 days ago
  • PNUTSMOM02
    Hey, maybe you should ask IFG why she's so negative? Is she feeling left out? Lonely? Maybe she just needs to go for a walk around the block and have a nice discussion about why it's important for her to support you.

    Maybe IFG is tired of being compared to someone 10 - 15 years younger and in another time. Help her look forward to the future and where she could be with a little love and support. Remind her it's one day at a time and sometimes we have bad days, but there's always tomorrow and healthy changes take time and lots of repetition.

    If that doesn't work, shove carrot sticks down her throat until she chokes on that nasty mantra and do a little victory dance on the grave!
    3326 days ago
  • GOURMETLOSER
    Ugh. I hate those days but you know what..... Your blogs and comments are such an inspiration to me. MY suggestion is you read through some of the stuff you've written, see how far you've come and IFG will have no leg to stand on when she tries to tell you it'll never happen. IT IS HAPPENING. It's not only a case of 'You CAN do this'. You ARE doing this. I can see it. (I'm jealous of it - in the nicest possible way of course!!!) Your other SP friends can see it. ISG can see it. Just parade it in front of IFG. Show her up for the lousy lying killjoy saboteur she is.

    If I can parody the TV ad we have here (Don't know if you have it - It's a shampoo ad for shiny, bouncy, luscious hair..........It says "It may not happen over night, but it will happen.")
    I say.......It may not happen overnight but it IS happening.
    3326 days ago
  • no profile photo LADYGREENEYES
    If you give IFG McD's, she will only want more. I say starve the bitch to death! emoticon That was my ISG talking. My IFG is saying, "Woo! It rained and is too friggin cold for ISG to subject my fat ass to that damn pool again! Day off! Day off!" but ISG is gonna make IFG suck it and do some ST.

    Is there a schizophrenic forum we can join?

    And hey, if IFG wins the binge war, do it on vegies and score shedloads of points for your team emoticon

    PS- Am I the only one hearing Eminem in my head? Please stand up, please stand up...

    Ok, my REAL advice is to let ISG kick IFG's ass! If you need help, you have my number. emoticon
    3326 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/20/2011 4:50:27 PM
  • THISYEARSMODEL
    Give her hell. You can do this!

    emoticon
    3326 days ago
  • JAILYNN0912
    Well, My IFG got the best of me this past weekend when it came to eating crap...however she didn't keep me out of the gym. I really wish you the best of luck and let me tell you that your IFG needs her mouth glued shut because you have done wonderful in the past 3 months that we have been talking and been such an inspiration.
    3326 days ago
  • JBLAISDELL
    Jessica, IFG is one mean bi-otch! I can relate to your frustration. While I was never an athlete, I was athletic and could easily do many forms of exercise and sports, even though I was overweight at the time. Fast forward 30 years of neglect and slothyness and now that I'm working on my own IFG, I find her to be particularly odious.
    But you know what, don't let her trick you into something you'll regret. That sneaky little twerp knows all the buttons to push, so just ignore her like you would a rat fink ex boyfriend.
    In the end you will be grateful you did, and you are going to find soon enough that those killer exercises will return to the less effort exercises of yore. Trust me, if a 50 year old lady like me can make it start to happen, I am confident in you that you will too.
    I hope I've encouraged rather than insulted you, that is the last thing I would want to do. emoticon
    3326 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10791121
    OH my gosh! I totally hear you on this. Remember you can silence her, by constantly telling yourself, I can do this! I know I can do this! Say it with me" I CAN DO THIS!!" Scream it if you have too. For me, when the IFG starts talking trash to me, I sit down and watch an episode of Heavy or Ruby, or Biggest loser. Anything that proves that even the fattest of the fat can lose the weight. Which usually shuts her up. I hope you are able to shut her up today. Let us know if you need anything to help support you today! We are all here, and we can all scream at her if you'd like!!

    YOU CAN DO THIS, YOU CAN DO THIS!! Remember that! YOU CAN DO THIS!! :D
    3326 days ago
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