Where have I been?

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Right here. Not communicating, not connecting, not reaching out, not taking care of myself. But I'm here. Like the woman said in The Color Purple "I'm here, Dear God, I'm here!"

Tonight I feel in a little better space so I thought I'd better put something down "on paper" before I don't feel in a little better space.

I've been working a 5-day week the last couple of weeks because one of the women who shares the job with the rest of us quit. I'm picking up the slack for a couple of weeks, but I surely don't want to get stuck with this any farther than next Monday. Time to set a boundary. Funny thing about boundaries and "people-pleaser" people (say THAT 3 times really fast). My boundaries are to take care of me--not other people. I do find it hard to value myself enough to put that boundary out there sometimes. Did someone say co-dependent? *sigh* But what is that phrase--If you don't want people to treat you like a doormat, then get up off of the D _ _ _ floor (emphasis is mine).

I have been watching a lot of TV with the new season upon us. Can't help it (OK I can, but I don't want to). I grew up on a farm in southwestern Ohio. My farmer dad was one of the first to have a B & W TV and then COLOR in the area. Guess that's how I got started being addicted to TV and blossomed out into technology. Forget about those new phones. What happened to all the emphasis on BIG BIG WIDE SCREEN TV'S?? So now we have to carry around a TV AND a COMPUTER in our tiny screen little dinky hardly-can-see-it phone. Forget THAT. Give me my DUMB phone.

All right, I know I'm rambling, but this IS MY blog and I can do what I want. So I hope you have a great evening. I'm glad to be back here. I'm gonna get a shower and watch Person of Interest because NCIS isn't on every night (DARN).

Later. Oh, here are some pictures of my grandkids. (Geez, what was this blog about anyway?)

Lila Rae eating her first graham cracker.

Luke Owen just being sweet.
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  • CKAYT56
    Wow, this just sounds like a Friday blog or end of the work week blog! I like it.....as thoughts come in to your head, you put them down in print. Makes perfect sense to me....as it seems I always have so many things on my mind at the same time and it gets all jumbled together.

    The grandkids are just precious! I have been watching the new TV shows too. I am a product of the "TV" era too.

    LOL, DUMB phone....some of my kids have those darn smart phones. Glad you are back....I would have come looking for you....I am not letting you off this easy....I am checking on you again tomorrow!!
    3437 days ago
  • ANNIE924
    I stayed away from Spark for a few months, just checking in once or twice until June, when I came back for good I hope. So I know what it is like.

    When I came back in June I wondered where you where, sorry I didn't contact you, I should have. emoticon

    Have a great day, good to hear from you. emoticon

    I almost forgot, very cute grandkids. emoticon
    3437 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/30/2011 8:03:44 AM
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