Holiday Revelations - Time to Hit the Reset Button

Monday, November 28, 2011

This Thanksgiving weekend, I pigged out, and I hardly worked out.


I told myself I wouldn't overeat, that I would only have a piece of pumpkin pie (which I worked out like a mad woman to earn last week), and that I'd work out every day but Thanksgiving. Instead, I ate everything in sight, including three pieces of cheesecake, almost an entire family size box of Chicken in a Biscuit crackers, and at least 6 dinner rolls (why did I buy all that crap anyway?) and only exercised 45 minutes the whole weekend.


The result - I gained 3.5 lbs. Shocking. Not!


I spent the weekend totally beating myself up, and then eating to sooth the emotional whippings I kept giving myself. I watched just about every movie on the Hallmark channel (damn you Countdown to Christmas!), and didn't shower on Sunday until right before bed.


I was thoroughly and utterly disgusted with myself and with the scale this morning, and feeling like a total slug and failure. I didn't track any of my food this weekend, and I have to face my health coach this morning, and I don't wanna!


I spend alot of my commuting time on self reflection, and was mentally berating myself again this morning, and seriously contemplating giving up, and resolving myself to being satisfied with where I'm at now. After all, I've accomplished what I consider to be an amazing thing (I've lost 100 lbs), I fit into my initial goal clothing now (2x shirt, size 16 pants), and I feel better than I have in years. So, why not just stop and be happy with what I've done and where I'm at?


Uh, duh, because I don't want to. Not really. I want to work harder, run faster, be healthier, shop in the misses section. I've been so busy worrying about external stressors, and berating myself for this nasty plateau I've been on, then consoling myself with my past accomplishments, that I've lost focus of who I want to be and where I want to go.

Well, that stops today. I'm going back to Stage 1, and refocusing on myself. I can get to that size 12 and 1X top (which has been my next goal) and I'm not settling for less.

So, I'm hitting the proverbial reset button, going back to tracking my food religiously, measuring my portions, and really pushing myself during my workouts. I've got this. I mean, after all, if I can lose 100 lbs, why can't I keep going? I'm worth it. I deserve it. I'm going to live my life for me, to be the me I want to be.

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  • no profile photo CD8532529
    I think we both just need to say no to the Hallmark made me seriously depressed yesterday because I haven't found the one...then compound that with all the freaking jewelry commericials that point out the deficit in a huge way and it's surprising I didn't gain all 50 pounds back this weekend. We can set the reset button and that is so awesome...and we can do all things in time. Here's to living the healthiest, best life we and matter where we are at in life! Hugs...Robin
    3421 days ago
    Today is a new day, and right now is a fresh new moment to start. I feel you on the overeating and then feeling like a failure, I do. However, that just means that we've got some problem areas we still don't have an A in. Just some areas to keep an eye on for the future. Perhaps the lesson out of this is not to buy the box of crackers? To buy just x amount of buns- 1 for each family member? To not make the cheesecake next year? Or if it must be made, hopefully in a year from now you will be better prepared to handle its delicious appearance. Consider this a test-run for every big family function and meal to come.

    But really, today is fresh and new, toss whatever is tempting you too much and don't beat yourself us anymore. You can do this!
    3421 days ago
    Don't beat yourself up, that only makes it worse. Just keep on keeping on. Move forward, and like you said, reset. You didn't do anything more than enjoy your Holiday, but this is no time to be talking about giving up. You have goals and I know you want to reach them. Just move on!
    3421 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10464769
    I am with you! You definately can do it. 100 pounds was a lot of work and you did that. I know you can keep going!
    3422 days ago
    Stacie -- girl I was good .. and my scale still says I gained 2.5 lbs ... I didn't eat pumpkin pie .. not a piece, nor the pan chocolate eclairs .. I worked out 3 times and still UGLY!! So .. girl I am with you .. I am not beating myself up .. but I am going to kick some serious fat butt over the course of the next 4 weeks! We can do it!
    3422 days ago
  • DIEHL79
    Hit that reset button. Heck, stamp and pounce on it! I'm in your boat. It seems like the more weight I lose, the harder it is to stay on track sometimes. I'm giving it a hard push until Christmas eve and then I'll get two days off to eat holiday treats and be lazy (within reason). Four weeks isn't that long to be good, so try it with me if you'd like.
    3422 days ago
    Honey I'm right there with you. Your weekend sounds like my weekend. It wasn't pretty, and I ended up with about the same gain. It's going down (said like Macho Man Randy Savage, RIP). The weight, the scale number, the self-punishment. Enough o'that.
    Let's make it happen!
    3422 days ago
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