Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Woke up early this morning, frustrated. I have a wedding picture hanging on my wall next to my bed. I looked at that beautiful girl and you know she really was beautiful and never knew it. She was at a healthy weight but her body issues kept her from realizing it, she always thought she was "fat".

I began to think back about the time in my life when I was the happiest and most healthy. It was in my third year of marriage. We lived in Houston and I was in graduate school. I had to drive to UH an hour away. I had to leave early to beat the traffic, and would sit in the student lounge and read my bible and get my homework done, then have coffee and food out of a machine! I would go to class then, practice (I was a musician) then go to the lounge again and have a sandwich OUT OF A MACHINE. Then I would practice again till traffic was thinned out and either go home and have dinner with the Hub or go teach; grab a quick sandwich as I headed out to a school to teach until 8pm or so then get home between 9:30-10.

I never had desert things in the house back then, no "diet" foods... just food. I didn't think that this food was good or bad it was just food. We ate protein, veggies, bread...the basics. But I was so busy that I didn't have time to focus on food. Food was fuel, period. God was the center of my life and I really lived back then. Now it seems like food is all I think about. From the time I wake up to the time I go to bed, my mind is ALWAYS on food, and by tracking every single calorie it's been WORSE!

Some have suggested that I start a list of activities that I want to take up to help get through the empty nest process which I have done. Excellent advice. Perhaps if I jump into some of these things that I've wanted to do I will focus on those activities rather than food. I think I need to get back to the basics: God, family and life. There was a time when I had my priorities in order, I need to get back to that place. Eat to live not live to eat. I feel like food has ended up my "god" somehow and that is just wrong.

Time to re-examine my priorities and change my focus.
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    I was going to suggest something similar. When we get mentally obsessed with something, we can't get rid of it by thinking "I'm not going to think about FOOD". Even our negative to get rid of it reminds us we're thinking or thinking about not thinking about food.

    Instead, finding a little thing that you can think about instead - making the mantra if food comes to mind "I will think about ___________", then we replace food rather than reinforce it. A verse from the Bible and reflecting on its meaning in your life would probably be an excellent example. You could pick one verse a day and just bring it back to mind to replace food if that came up needlessly.
    3377 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/11/2012 3:56:31 PM
    You are on the right track. Maybe everytime you get a craving grab a glass of water and your bible and spend 5 or 10 minutes reading and reflecting. Redirecting your thoughts. I strongly encourage you to do things and activities that you have always wanted to do to help alleviate your empty nest syndrome. You might be surprised at what you find out about yourself. Step outside of the box and your comfort zone and embrace the changes. Good luck.
    3377 days ago
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