Wednesday, January 25, 2012
ok, so it's been a while since i've updated this blog. I wont lie, things have been rocky.
The weight loss and fitness efforts are actually fine, one of the only constants my life actually has to offer right now oddly enough.
I got down to 249, but the scale is back up to 251, which i all likely just water retention and what not,so no big dealio.
My doctors appointment least week went well, the nurses and doctors were very impressed with my weight loss, i still cant see a real substantial difference though. I guess I eat too many lean cuisines and other microwaveable meals, sodium and what not, not letting me release inches. Tired of still looking so gross despite how much i've lost.
I want to make more homemade meals and snacks and what not, but I dont have my own kitchen, and not enough refrigerator space to keep all the ingredients needed to be consistent, so i make do with what i have.
dont even get me started on the cost...
So at work i've been cut down to 4 days a week (so has everyone else) in order to make payroll for the last 2 weeks of the fiscal year, and im averaging about 2 dogs a day, as usual, our business is up to us, but there just arent that many people willing to get their dogs groomed right now. So i'm barely making any money, my boyfriend is already going to pay about 200 of my rent, and bills are a whole different thing, i had to postpone the payment of my care insurance and incur a late fee just to get through the week.
So the doctors put me on lamictal, which is normally used to treat epileptic patients, but also worked well in the treatment of bipolar disorder, as well as celexa for the depression, i dont start the celexa until ive been on lamictal for 2 weeks just to make sure there arent any serious side affects (believe me, the list of potentially dangerous ones is long)
I still cant really manage to pull my self out of this funk, still so depressed, theres no reason to be this low, despite the normal factors like the fact that im making no money among other things.
at any rate... thats how things have been, more from me later