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Starting Over......Again

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Wow, as January 2012 draws to an end-I must say I'm disappointed...Really disappointed. According to my plan, I should've reached my goal by now and be down 40lbs with only maybe 10-15 lbs more to go. However, that's not my reality. Instead I'm sitting here starting over...AGAIN! If someone would have told me back in August 2011 that August would have been a "false start" I'm not sure I would have believed them. But I wish someone would've said just that.

So i'm saying it now. To myself & to whom ever may happen to read this. There will be many false starts & many start overs. That sucks. I started strong in August, went Hard in September, only to be injured in October & have to restart in November. I hit it Hard again in December reached an "all time best" of a 13 minute mile, only to be deflated, literally at December's end with pneumonia.

A pneumonia that won't let me loose. I keep having set backs. I finally this week was able to walk...a disappointing 20 minute mile, with side hurting, legs itching, and panting-but hey the fact that I got back out there "should be" what really matters right? I managed to do 2 sets of 12 squats a few days later only to find that even today (3 days after the squats & like 5 days after the 20 minute mile) I can barely walk & my breathing is labored at best.

So here I sit, wondering now what? Not really knowing if I have another "start" or "restart" in me. Reading thru the spark motivational pages looking for someone like me, hoping to find inspiration. Saddened by the reality because I know, deep down that today-this starting over won't be the last. Because I can't control the weather. I can't control injury or illness.

So once again, i'm starting over.....
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  • NEWME0519
    Nothing beats a failure but a try! So if you have to start over 1,000 times the point is not to ever give up on you!

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    3078 days ago
  • ADZY86
    You are definitely not alone. I've just started again. I managed to lose 30lbs last year, and I've gained every single pound of it back over the last 3 months. It really is demoralising, but we're still here aren't we? We haven't thrown in the towel. We cannot let this beat us. Just reset your tracker, reset your goals and get right back on it.
    Yes, like you said, this may be another false start (hopefully not) but just look at how much we are learning each time! We can do this. Good luck x
    3081 days ago
  • FITFABJENN
    You have it in you. Just hit the restart button and move forward with those healthy habits that you know work. You can do this. Just NEVER give up!
    3081 days ago
  • SMURFETE09
    Start over as many times as you need to. I like you am starting over.... again.... I know this site works. I lost 20lbs with it's assistance before. Then I fell off track gained it all back and then some... And then I did HCG (crash diet, very unhealthy, but successful) and lost weight, and was thinking of doing it again, and then I decided that I needed to this place. With it's motivation, with it's support, with it's power, with it's ability to put everything right in front of me.

    But this is one of many of my "starting over". And I'm sure there will be more "starting over" for me in the future. Because every day I fall off the wagon, or every day I cheat, or every day I fail to achieve my goals, I basically have to start over.

    But there's nothing wrong with that, the important part is that you have the will to start over. As many times as it takes to get you where you need to be.

    You can do it!
    3081 days ago
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