I realize that this is a spiritual journey for me.

As many of you know I began leading and participating in a Firsplace4health Bible study. I have an unofficial mentor to help me lead and keep me accountable. She has made me realize that my eating habits are, indeed, a spiritual battle. As she put it, this is the thorn in my side. I realize that it holds true for me as well. It will be a lifelong battle and the only way I can succeed is to accept that and turn it over to God.

By 'turning over to God" does not get me off the hook. He has given me freedom to choose. I choose Him in my life, but not in the area of food.

In the past I have thought of giving something up for Lent, but could only think of food items. I always felt a little guilty, as if giving something up for lent that might help me lose weight, was rather self focused and not God focused. As I have come to realize that this is a cross I bear, I need to rely on God to help me bear it. Therefore I am turning my desire toward Jesus and focusing on Him to help me learn to bear with this.

I am not making it simple for me. God will make it simple for me. Thank you God! I am giving up sweets and diet soda for Lent. This is HUGE for me, but nothing is too big for God. I have learned he wants me to cherish my body and that the devil is more determined than ever to interfere.

For the first time, a sacrifice for lent is really to focus on Him and not me.

Please pray for me during this journey.