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Wednesday, February 29, 2012

I just typed a whole blog, (complete with pithy comments), and it was somehow deleted....GRRRR
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Let's start again:

My last blog was 7 - - SEVEN! Months ago!!

Yep; I was a Spark drop-out. To be honest, I was really sick and tired of listening to myself whine about the same thing over and over again. I decided I needed to get my sh*t together. So, I left.

I was wrong, very, very wrong.
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I've learned a few things:
*I will probably ::never:: get my sh*t together. I have to stop waiting for that day to come.
*Leaving SP didn't take me any closer to getting my proverbial sh*t together.
*If I don't learn the lesson and be willing to make some serious changes in my life, I will always end up right where I've always been.
*I've missed my Spark buddies...I not only bailed on myself, I've bailed on you as well. I'm sorry.
*It's time.

I turned Fifty (gasp!) in October.
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My daughter is in her second year of college, and my son is a Junior in high school. I don't have babies anymore; it's "ok" to take time for me. I need to dump the guilt about spending time/effort on myself. (Or is this yet another subliminal EXCUSE??)

One of my favorite sayings is "Fall Down Seven Times, Get Up Eight"

Here we go again; time to dust myself off, and get up off of my lard @ss, yet again.

Happy Leap Day my Sparkies!

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  • SEEHOLZ
    3 yrs and 1 month ago I read a certain blog about burning ships... which ended as follows:

    "Give me the torch - I'm ready to burn this ship. And I'd much rather be a sleek, vivacious v12 (think Jaguar), than a frumpy v4 gimping around (think Yugo). After all, it's better to burn out than it is to rust...
    No. Turning. Back."

    Since that I've come to realize that for me, it's not about getting OCD about loosing weight anymore- but instead it is about being happy and doing the things that make me happy and the rest of the stuff, like weight and appearance will follow naturally, by simply doing the things that are focused on being truly happy...

    Essentially, I don't know if it is about drastic action steps, but instead about a shift in my thinking?

    And the 2nd thing I have come to realize that as long as I keep trying,I am not turning back!

    I secretely have hoped, ever since your 1st departure, that you'd come back!
    3242 days ago
  • CATIATM
    I've missed you! emoticon
    3245 days ago
  • MARLY53
    emoticon Been there, done that and I feel the same way. I haven't left Spark people, but I quit blogging because I was tired of hearing myself whine, have an aha moment then do nothing and I mean nothing about it! Welcome back!
    3251 days ago
  • _RAMONA
    Of COURSE I remember!!! I missed you, I wondered about you... I SO glad to see you again! I was just entering some food into my tracker, and there you popped onto my feed!

    ... and you've made me laugh... BONUS!

    Ya know, we all take a somewhat circuitous path to wellness. Even though I've been around (abd turned 51 in February), it doesn't mean I've made any great progress... though I think I've finally rebuilt my momentum (check out my progress pic and you can tell me... link at the bottom of my newest blog entry)... and today I got all the motivation I needed to keep on the straight and narrow (had a stress test, SIGH).

    You're right, though, it's easier to muddle towrad success if you're at least engaged... so here's to re-engagement!

    WELCOME BACK!!!
    (no apologies necessary... LOVE the new page dressing)
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    3251 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/29/2012 9:32:48 PM
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