Wednesday, March 28, 2012
By June of 2011 I was the lowest I had been since before my kids were born. I was 202lbs and dying to get into ONEderland. Now it's almost April of 2012 and I am back up to 250lbs.
A year ago, my best friend and I were celebrating our weight loss accomplishments and buying new clothes. I was excited about a pair on pants she gave me, she's smaller then me even when I was 202 she was about 150, and I wore them about 6 times. That was it. I was looking forward to being at my goal weight this summer and actually getting to wear shorts! Now here is summer and Im still looking at pants because I'm fat again.
I know how I got big again, I'm not going to lie and say I don't know what happened. I do! It's just that I don't know how to get my motivation back. I have tried several times to get started again but I just don't have that motivation. Where did it go and why can't I figure out hwo to get it back? I have plenty of people around me for support. Everyone I know is losing weight and there is even a contest at work involving 70+ people and over $4,000 which you would think would be motivation but it's not. I could care. Yet here I sit crying cause I'm fat again. WTF is wrong with me??? I want my mojo back!!!