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Fat again

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

By June of 2011 I was the lowest I had been since before my kids were born. I was 202lbs and dying to get into ONEderland. Now it's almost April of 2012 and I am back up to 250lbs.

A year ago, my best friend and I were celebrating our weight loss accomplishments and buying new clothes. I was excited about a pair on pants she gave me, she's smaller then me even when I was 202 she was about 150, and I wore them about 6 times. That was it. I was looking forward to being at my goal weight this summer and actually getting to wear shorts! Now here is summer and Im still looking at pants because I'm fat again.

I know how I got big again, I'm not going to lie and say I don't know what happened. I do! It's just that I don't know how to get my motivation back. I have tried several times to get started again but I just don't have that motivation. Where did it go and why can't I figure out hwo to get it back? I have plenty of people around me for support. Everyone I know is losing weight and there is even a contest at work involving 70+ people and over $4,000 which you would think would be motivation but it's not. I could care. Yet here I sit crying cause I'm fat again. WTF is wrong with me??? I want my mojo back!!!
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    I understand where you are coming from! I have lost my motivation as well. A long time ago actually and since then it has been one excuse after another. The worst part is that for me its not just working out, I cannot even figure out how to eat less and make sure its healthier foods! I decided that right now I have to focus on one day at a time. I can't look past that. I have a whole bunch of goals that I want to accomplish, but it all starts with today. So I work on my little daily goals. Heck, I quit smoking and that alone is one of the biggest accomplishments for my good health in the future. We cannot cut ourselves down. Instead, we have to find what works for us. I feel great when I work out. I feel amazing when I eat healthy foods. I am just tired and feel like I have no time for anything. I know all it takes is to start with 10 minutes a day! And I am going to do it. You can do it too hun!
    3296 days ago
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    You can do it again, don't be hard on yourself. Maybe take smaller steps, focus on just smaller changes at a time & it will all come together. Just do this for you and no other reason - not coworkers, money, or smaller jeans. Just for the sake of being good to yourself. I wish you the best.
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    3297 days ago
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