8Adding a second blog today as I actually have the time and am thinking about this.
The challenge: ask for and receive support.
Me: Never want to ask for support. I want to always look successful and never look overwhelmed, overtired, overworked, overfed, underexercised and all the other over and unders we get when life gets stressful.
The truth is, my life is really stressful. I'm (redacted: too personal to say) and then there is also (redacted, again too personal). My work is crazy--my accountant resigned suddenly due to health reasons and we have been trying to do the accounting ourselves. We realized we can't, and so are hiring a new accountant (I hope!) this weekend. We are 4 staff members trying to do the work of 8. The person I had working part time with online stuff had to resign as his "real" job was getting too busy.
We are just climbing out of the recession and it has affected business. We are lucky we are still in business and cleaning up after the past two years is a challenge. We have to stay shortstaffed-lean and mean- until our profits are back on track.
I'm starting school in a few months and am right now prepping for the GMAT, and am taking an intensive prep class. They expect 35 hours of study per week. I work 40+. I don't know how to juggle it next week. I fly out on Tuesday..class is at 6:30 on Wednesday (internet class) and I have to pick up my brother from the airport at 6:20....then our sale starts Thursday, which is 12+ hours a day for 4 days...where does the 35 hours come from?
Then of course my husband would like to see me once in a while. I'm actually flying straight from the city where the sale is being held and meeting him for vacation...yet I am still going to study my 35 hours. At least I won't have to work that week..I can study lots.
Then I'm home for a week...then gone for two...home for a week and then the GMAT. Somewhere in there I need to finish my application, get transcripts, references, and write an essay on why I'd be a good candidate!
I'm also very blessed. I have an enviable home gym and my husband will do the cooking. Since I own my own business I can arrange my own schedule. I'm going to get up at 6, work out, head to work and leave a bit early so I can study.
My employees are very good. My husband loves me. Even the two (redacted) issues are not life threatening things.
In general I have a very good life.
See...see how I'm doing it again? I play down my issues so I can support others. Even today I texted my BFF to talk about my crazy schedule and ended up talking about BFF's problems. ...
I DO have a great life AND I am incredibly stressed out, busy and I tend to eat my emotions. The two aren't incompatible.
Ok, there. I did it. As personal as I can get here..... yikes, that was hard.