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Week 3 Reflection

Tuesday, May 01, 2012

4/23/12-4/29/12
My Weight Loss Journey

This was perhaps the hardest week of my journey so far. The week started out really well, and then it went downhill, a little bit uphill and then came crashing down on me on Sunday after church.
Monday, I woke up, rearing to go…exercising, committed to the BLC challenge and making sure that my calories were in the right range. I even made a doctor’s appointment to get some clarity on what I needed to do to keep a weight loss going. The next day, I woke up exhausted. Not entirely sure at that point why I was so tired. For the next couple of days I kept getting up exhausted. Then one night, I forgot to take my blood pressure meds. Ok, so I am almost 29 and already on blood pressure meds. What is wrong with this picture? Well, I woke up the next morning, in such a better mood and energized, ready to exercise! So, I “forgot” to take my meds the next day and I felt the same way, energized and in a better mood. So, for the time being, until I talk to my doctor, I decided to keep taking the meds and not look as closely at my sodium levels because I’m still not entirely sure if that would be the only issue…heart issues can be scary and I don’t want to mess with them lol.

After that issue, everything seemed to be going pretty good. I had powered my way through my daily exercises, my nutrient levels were doing wonderful, and I was headed into a beautiful weekend. So Sunday, we went to church, even was there early to start training on the camera (we stream live on the internet…so cool!) The sermon was on miracles. I remember distinctly if the speaker asked if anyone has any problems…I DID raise my hand on that one, my life is one big problem…one big mess that I have made by not following God. Then he asked if anyone did NOT have a problem. I did NOT raise my hand on that one, and he said that if anyone raised their hands to the last question, they were not eligible for a miracle. Makes sense…no problem, no miracle. Well, after a wonderful sermon, and then a great youth spaghetti dinner/fundraiser, my husband and I headed towards home and the grocery store. All of the sudden, our car started to act funny. It wouldn’t shift gears, and then the engine light came on. Long story short, it is now at the transmission specialist because the transmission has went out on it. Because I cannot afford the bill in full, I will have to refinance my car, with the remaining balance and the repair bill. I DID NOT SAY I DIDN’T HAVE A PROBLEM!! WHY WAS I GIVEN THIS STRESSFUL PROBLEM? I was so frustrated that night, I went home, cried, my poor husband helplessly trying to comfort my. We ordered pizza, and I probably ate too much. No, I know I ate too much. The next day, I was still pretty depressed, but trying really hard to stay positive. My wonderful friends were there to encourage me and lift me back up to where I needed to be. Sonia told me that she is walking this path with me; Brenda gave me a wonderful song that spoke to me about how God knows I’m strong enough to deal with this. I know that Lindsay was there praying for me. In fact, I know that the whole Carnations team was praying for me. I could feel myself being lifted out of a dump, and stood back on my feet. I’m so thankful that God saw fit to put these ladies in my life.

That being said, so closes week 3. Bring on week 4!


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  • SONIA260
    Jennifer, lately everything that happens, or everything that I read reminds me of a song and I just begin to sing. So I thought I'd tell you which one God gave to me while reading about your situation:

    Be still and know that I am God,
    be still and know that I am God,
    be still and know that I am God.

    In thee, O Lord, I put my trust,
    In thee, O Lord, I put my trust,
    In thee, O Lord, I put my trust

    Always be here for you, and I pray for each and every one of my teammates daily, any need any of my girls mention gets written in my prayer journal :)
    2949 days ago
  • ZSMOM1208
    Stay strong Jennifer. Your comrade is praying for you also. We all face challenges, but I think that overcoming them makes success fill that much better. God is setting you up for a breakthrough, you just have to believe it and hold on :) You're doing great, keep it up.
    2949 days ago
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    You're always in my prayers Jennifer. Stay strong and remember that God never gives us more than we can handle. Sometimes it feels like it but He knows our limits. And remember that He does everything with purpose. Be patient and know that He only has good intentions for you.
    "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11
    2949 days ago
  • CANDIGIRL4K
    Loved it...needed to read it too! I laughed at "I DID NOT SAY I DIDN’T HAVE A PROBLEM!! WHY WAS I GIVEN THIS STRESSFUL PROBLEM?" Right?! But God works according to His plan, so sometimes you have to just wait and see. Glad to hear that you were lifted up and ready to continue---Keep at the awesome job!
    2949 days ago
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