So, everytime I come back to SP, I feel like I have to purge my confessions. LOL Here it goes this time:
First, I want to apologize to my former BLC team, The Forest Green Pixies. I came back last year and was so very excited, but I quickly found that I could not keep up anymore. After the first couple of weeks even logging in became very difficult for me let alone trying to do any of the challenges or GOYBADs. I'm so sorry I let my pixies down. I realized I was going to have to go about weight loss a different way this time and that makes me sad because I really enjoyed BLC.
Actually, that is my biggest confession. LOL The rest is the same. Have I been eating right? No. Have I been working out? No. Have I been drinking my water and eating my freggies. No and no. Now that is clear, we can move on. :)
I think I feel my life is a little out of control right now and the only thing that I could control would be my eating and exercise. There are weeks I don't know which way is up and which way is down. Since the beginning of the year, my life has been one big whirlwind and I feel like I am stuck on fast forward ALL THE TIME.
On January 2, my life turned upside down. You see, despite that being my oldest son's birthday, my father passed away that day. Ever since then, so many things have happened. Or maybe it just feels like it. Some ugly truths have come out and my family and I have had to deal with it. My father had his own company and so many ventures that he dabbled in. He was always looking for *the* money maker. With his passing, my mom was left to deal with all that. So, I quit my job and went to work for the company because she is my only living parent and I'm going to do everything I can to keep her with us. To me that meant, alleviating some of the stress. Thankfully, my brother came to work there as well. He is taking care of the managing aspect while I take care of the financial aspect. And boy is that a headache. It is a lot of that keeps me up at night. So between work, a baby that just turned one year old, two sons - one of which is very much in to sports, a husband who I am ashamed to say I definitely have been neglecting and a home, I knew that I had to get back in to eating right and exercising because it is the one thing I do for me that makes me feel good.
All of that was a little dfficult to write so I think I will leave it at that for now. It's too deep for me to have on my mind all day long on payroll day. LOL
Just know, I am back. I will be doing things differently, but it doesn't mean I don't want the support of the SP community.
I may not be as peppy as I once was, but by golly I sure am going to try!