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Changing my life at 47

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Yesterday was my Birthday. I kept it very low key. But made major changes in my life in the days leading up to it. I am newly single, living alone, and wanting to learn to love and accept me. I had one binge for my birthday. Can't say it will be the last one. In my mind since it was healthy food, it wasn't that bad of a binge, and I actually stopped when I felt full instead of just eating everything because it was n front of me. i have moments of loneliness, but I am not as heartbroken as I thought I would be being alone. Hate the idea of exercise, but it is the biggest change I have to make in my life. I need to find something that gives me a release for my stress and helps get my body and mind into shape. I actually picked up a catalogue from the local parks and rec department to see what classes they offered. My kid took classes, but i have never looked for myself. Think I might be going overboard, I was all hype last night to join yoga, step aerobics, and water aerobics. Today I am thinking I should probably try one class at a time, instead of going overboard and getting discouraged, then quitting all of them. I have many acquaintances, but no true close friends. The only person I have to confide in and talk to is my son. He has always been here for me, but he is starting on a new life with his future wife, and I feel the need to not be so dependent on him, so I will probably be writing my feelings here more often than naught, just to get them out. I wish God actually spoke - I would love to have conversations with him and be able to here his hopes and dreams for me from his lips. I try to figure out from studying the bible, but at times I feel I am doing it all wrong and disappointing him and myself. Well that is my rant for the day. I am sure I will be back soon.
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    Happy Belated Birthday Gillian! My back went out on me again today. I've been thinking taking yoga would help me learn to relax, limber up and become stronger. My mom joined the YMCA probably around 8 years ago. She takes the water aerobics classes which helps strengthen her knees and keeps her in shape. She also met her best friends at the Y. In addition to seeing each other at the Y, they go to lunch together or shopping or museums,etc. I encourage you to try one class then the next session either add or substitute another class depending how you feel about it. I have just started subscribing to and receive an inspirational email every day. We all have to learn to be our own best friend.
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    Happy Belated Birthday! This is a great way to share your thoughts and feeling and make new friends. Taking classes is a wonderful way to find exercise that is fun and you look forward to going. This is a great time in your life to find out who you are, what you like to do. It can be lonely and sad at times, but it can also be a time of great discovery. emoticon
    2897 days ago
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