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I Was Sure to Find Myself

Monday, June 18, 2012

Well, for those of you who were keeping track of this stuff at home, I batted a thousand on all three jobs.

And ... they went as follows.

The one I really wanted, that one was through a recruiter. He pushed for an early decision, mainly as the Hiring Manager wanted someone in for the first of July. And that's just not gonna happen if the decision is much later than, well, today.

I was sent over, as was another woman. She had rather different experience from me; this was done deliberately as the recruiter really had no idea how the Hiring Manager was going to go.

Anyway, long story short, I was the superior candidate in every way.

And I wasn't hired.


'Cause I reiterated my answers too much.


Am I boring you? Is that it?


I don't recall repeating myself on more than one thing. Seriously. And this came from a Hiring Manager who told me the same story about not finding parking. Twice.

C'mon, man!

At some point, it becomes Absurdist Theatre.

Then I called the other two jobs. The job I wanted the least (high cachet place, but lousy pay) at least wrote to me, telling me that I didn't get it. Um, okay. Thanks for telling me.

After I removed every tooth in your head to get you to tell me.

The other place didn't even have THAT much courtesy.

They just never called or wrote back. Hence I wrote them off, on Friday the 15th.

And yanno something?

I felt better than I had in weeks.

It had been dragging me down. It had HURT. It had bewildered me.

Now I just see it as Absurdist Theatre. And that's somewhat freeing.

Now, I like to work. I truly do. This is one of the reasons why I am working like a dog on my father's website. I enjoy being productive. I am one of those people who has trouble just hanging out poolside, unless I am either reading or sleeping (sleeping is productive, people!). Doing absolutely nothing tends to not suit me.

Yet I am out of work more than, and more often than, pretty much everyone I know.

I am not dumb. I am not uneducated. I am not just sitting around waiting for jobs to come to me. I clean up well. I am not a fool in interviews (the reiteration thing, truly, is beyond the pale).

In the past, when I've had stalled job searches, I've gone to school. But no school exists for this. Or, at least, for less than a good 3 grand (no lie) in tuition, and there is no certification at the end of that rainbow. Cripes! I'd rather pay 2 months' worth of my mortgage. Silly me! I want a house to live in! How insane am I???

And so, gentle reader, this crap continues.

It's a bit like a stalled weight loss program. You try this, that and the other thing. You try things that seem to make no sense. You ask for advice. You don't ask for advice. You wonder what the hell you did wrong, what kind of karmic debt you owe, and to whom. You ponder whether it'll ever happen again.

Yet of course it'll happen again. Life is not over. There is no need to just up and give up.

The same is true of both.

Reiteration? SERIOUSLY? Are you s****ing me??? You, sir, do not want to hire ANYONE.

Welcome to Absurdist Theatre.
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    Aren't you glad you aren't hired into that theater?? When I got out of grad school I wasn't finding work and I needed work to start my post-grad internship. Well, when I got hired, I looked back at all the jobs I didn't get, and I realized that I wouldn't be happy in any of them.

    Keep digging for the job that fits you best, and makes you happy. Keep busy because you like to work. (I worked on the house and yard) Enjoy each day, job or not. When you do get that right job it will be so much better than absurdist theater managers . . .
    2965 days ago
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    I have to admit, your post on Ddoorn's page piqued my interest because I'm also looking for work and to be honest (and I hope this doesn't sound mean-spirited because that is NOT my intent AT ALL) it actually kind of encouraged me to know there are other people in the same position, even tho I do read the headlines and I know there ARE a lot of people in this boat....but by the same token, nobody I'm actually acquainted with in any way, if you get my drift. It's a helluva battle, isn't it? And employers' manners have really gone by the wayside, if my own experiences are any indication. It's been more than a bit discouraging, trying to find work at the age that I am now, and despite any qualifications I may or may not have. It's left me feeling like a used up and totally worthless UN-commodity, in today's workforce. And I know that a lot of it is age-related, despite protestations to the contrary. That is most certainly alive and thriving, even tho it's never ***spoken of*** because it is not the 'politically correct' (or legal) thing to do, of course. I just want to wish you well on your search in hopes you find something that you really like. I would be happy for just a minimum wage gig, at this point. LOL But I really like your attitude about it, I could take a clue. After putting in app after app after app, and only managing to snag temporary employment over the past few months, I'm to the point where I don't really wanna go out of the house because it feels like such an ego-crusher when I do venture out and it kinda gets hard to get your hopes dashed on a daily basis, and to be seriously downgraded when you DO manage to find even a temporary job, for pete's sake. I've kind of had it with humanity as a whole here lately. LOL Best wishes in your search and here's hoping the universe will be kind to us both, at some point.......
    2968 days ago
    Yanno....I can kind of relate.....I showed property to a couple for almost two weeks...drove up and down this effing sandbar showing them houses....burned up two tanks of fossil fuel...then crickets are chirping. They drove back to New Yawk with not so much as an effing "thank you for your time but we ain't buyin'!" No returned phone calls, not even the dignity of a "yeah, we ain't buyin'" email, nuthin'. Just crickets chirping. I wrote them off last night, picked up my 20#'s. If you let it, it can really get you down. Glad that's not the case with you.
    2969 days ago
    PS, Cute pict
    2969 days ago
    Ugh. Frustrating and disappointing. I love that you ran a race the night of one of these turndowns. That's what I call a good spirt. I also think it was interesting that after what sounded like such a long dry period you got 3 interviews in a row. Seems like the economy is turning around in your neck of the woods. I hope you keep at it and don't lose heart. Just like weight loss. That is a very interesting parallel that you draw. Gotta think about that some more.
    2969 days ago
    Comedy Theater=Mr. Hiring Manger not finding his car at the end of the day...

    2969 days ago
    It is a weird world these days. Good luck as you continue searching for a job. As Ms. Eleni said - a better one is waiting for you!
    2970 days ago
    Ugh! SO sorry to hear the struggle continues! All things considered, it sounds like you are taking this a whole lot better than *I* would...!

    One foot ahead of the other...!

    2970 days ago
    It wasn't meant to be. A better job is just around the corner. emoticon emoticon
    2970 days ago
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