It really bothered me...
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Yes I did! I knew I would have to; but when I wrote my last blog, I thought it would be a toss-up between the Sp weight loss tracker and chocolate cake. But no, it just really bothered me, soooo, I went back this morning and changed my weight entry to match my actual weight loss of 74 pounds. So what does .2 of 1 pound mean? A lot when you're doing daily battle in the mind and spirit as well as the flesh! I earned that .2 weight loss and I wasn't letting go of it. It's the same as when I go into the Weight Watcher meeting room and get on the scale only to have it register a water weight gain. It's STILL A GAIN. I still feel it. My head may say it's ok, but my heart longs for justice.
I had a little emotional zing from a dear friend yesterday, well meaning as it was, and not about me at all. But it felt like it was a reflection on me and I couldn't help wondering if that friend wasn't chastising me in her very non-aggressive passive aggressive way. If she doesn't like something I say, fore instance, she always "has another call" waiting in the nicest way, but the passivity of it makes me feel like an aggressive idiot sometimes. End of discussion. And there's another person in my life who says"okay" to everything and then does none of the things I try to help her do. So after she's done dumping her woes on me, she goes away leaving me drained and she feels justified in doing nothing as usual, since what I advise usually requires some action and faith in the process and trust in God.
So today as I go out to help at my church's Vacation bible school, with a temporary filling that keeps falling out of my tooth, and facing mid-90's degree weather, I couldn't let that .2 pound get swept away. It was the one thing I could change that was meaningful to me today. So there, the Sp weight loss tracker and the WW scale are in sync, the ducks are in a row, I've repacked a temp filling in my tooth for now, and I'm off to help the VBS kids do their crafts if I can stay awake long enough. LOL I will definitely be taking a nap this afternoon in the heat of day, God willing.