So I went to my Weight Watchers meeting Wednesday morning and the scale had me at a ONE POUND WEIGHT GAIN..I KNOW IT'S ONLY WATER WEIGHT....and it's only a number######, Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, but it still gets to me. I think I belabor the weight thing, except I have so far to go that I don't trust me to get there before I jump ship! Now intellectually that sounds silly because I have so educated myself nutritionally, BUT THIS WEIGHT THING MAKES NO SENSE ANYWAY.
Fact: I have been in overweight mode ALL my life. I didn't start out thin and suddenly put on baby weight or sedentary weight, or any of those other 10 pound maladies that trouble the newbies to the overweight game, although I know 10 pounds can be very serious if you're not used to it.
Fact: I've been doing "THIS" all my life. There is no magic pill.
Fact: I am a compulsive over eater, a food addict. Always have been, probably always will be.
Fact: Just when I think I've got IT down, IT slips away. IT slipped, and I'm in hot pursuit again. I want the good thing back that I worked so hard for.
Fact: That's what happens when a foodie lets down their guard for a minute or a day with just a little emotional slip.
Fact: That slip is the beginning of a slide down a slippery slope.
Fact: I am digging in with all the faith and grit and determination I have, and journalling and blogging this thing out of my system.
Fact: I have gone to several Sp motivational blogs, sites, and a video, and have prayed for this to stop.
Fact: I feel so much better as my system is being purged of thoughts of chocolate cake(which I threw out last night after a taste or two); a few choice words in my journal about my fat friend who spiked my mind earlier in the week with a spiritual dart to the heart; and a friendly encounter with a small serving of BK fries on the way home from VBS.
Fact: I feel a lot better and I'm going to crochet and then take a little nap. I'm short of sleep since I started VBS, and I owe it to my body and mind, and all the kids I come in contact with tomorrow!!
Love you Sparkers. Whatever would I do without you?????
One of the gifts of the spirit not mentioned in the Bible; the gift of blogging!!!!!!Thank you Lord.