In hot pursuit

Thursday, July 19, 2012

So I went to my Weight Watchers meeting Wednesday morning and the scale had me at a ONE POUND WEIGHT GAIN..I KNOW IT'S ONLY WATER WEIGHT....and it's only a number######, Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, but it still gets to me. I think I belabor the weight thing, except I have so far to go that I don't trust me to get there before I jump ship! Now intellectually that sounds silly because I have so educated myself nutritionally, BUT THIS WEIGHT THING MAKES NO SENSE ANYWAY.
Fact: I have been in overweight mode ALL my life. I didn't start out thin and suddenly put on baby weight or sedentary weight, or any of those other 10 pound maladies that trouble the newbies to the overweight game, although I know 10 pounds can be very serious if you're not used to it.
Fact: I've been doing "THIS" all my life. There is no magic pill.
Fact: I am a compulsive over eater, a food addict. Always have been, probably always will be.
Fact: Just when I think I've got IT down, IT slips away. IT slipped, and I'm in hot pursuit again. I want the good thing back that I worked so hard for.
Fact: That's what happens when a foodie lets down their guard for a minute or a day with just a little emotional slip.
Fact: That slip is the beginning of a slide down a slippery slope.
Fact: I am digging in with all the faith and grit and determination I have, and journalling and blogging this thing out of my system.
Fact: I have gone to several Sp motivational blogs, sites, and a video, and have prayed for this to stop.
Fact: I feel so much better as my system is being purged of thoughts of chocolate cake(which I threw out last night after a taste or two); a few choice words in my journal about my fat friend who spiked my mind earlier in the week with a spiritual dart to the heart; and a friendly encounter with a small serving of BK fries on the way home from VBS.
Fact: I feel a lot better and I'm going to crochet and then take a little nap. I'm short of sleep since I started VBS, and I owe it to my body and mind, and all the kids I come in contact with tomorrow!!
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  • JILL313
    I think I know exactly how you feel about this Journey to Health and Losing weight. It has many ups and downs and we let what the scale says ruin our day. In spite of many missteps myself I choose to never give up on myself and it sounds like you're the same way. Just think back as to how you've changed since Spark in many positive ways. Changing our thinking and lives is always going to be Challenging to most of us. Continue forward Patty.


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    "IT" Eeew, what can I say; we all know"it". "It" is very sneaky and deceiving. We know we are doing a good job and have the best of intentions, but "it" can REALLY make us doubt ourselves. One trick I use, that works pretty well, is "God's own time". When I am trying to overcome some temptation to do something (eat damaging food) or not do something (exercise), I think I can put off eating an unhealthy thing, "I'll do it in God's right time", Maybe it will be sometime later, maybe when I'm at my goal weight, maybe at a future banquet with Him. Maybe this is God's good time for me to exercise. I know it may sound hokey, but it has worked for me. Best of luck with VBS and try to get enough sleep.
    3054 days ago
    his could have been written by me I think... I wonder why I keep trying as I get so little success from it. But still, what is the alternative? To lay down and die?
    3055 days ago
    I'm right there with you, Patty! Grrr is right! We always have to be on guard and approach this systematically, but sometimes I get tired of it. That doesn't mean give up, it just means that I am weary occasionally, but then I try to find ways out of the blue funk I'm in, just like you. At least we can keep working on it...obesity isn't terminal unless we allow it to be! Sending you hugs! Jeannie
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    I love the way you wrote your blog. Like Nell said: "It's harder to lose than to gain", but with help from above and your Spark Friends, you can do it. Your in my prayers also. Happy Sparking and blogging.
    3055 days ago
    You may think you have been heavy all your life, but I think you were born tiny. It's harder to lose than to gain, though. None of use counted every mouthful on the way up, so it seems like it just got absorbed from the air. It didn't, but it feels that way. You'll get it off, one hard working day at a time!
    3055 days ago
    I know that often, I am my own worst enemy....especially with the "emotional over-eating" thing. We can easily convince ourselves that just one serving isn't going to hurt...but do we stop there? (sigh)

    When I started my healthy journey - I told myself that NOTHING was off limits, BUT it had to be only ONE serving. Well....what's the fun in only eating one serving of something you crave? Soon I lost interest in those tempting morsels and now I just visit them at the store (like chocolate).

    Often you can find me standing in the chocolate aisle talking to a bag of chocolate, trying to explain that I really want to eat you...but I choose to not buy you! LOL

    Self-talk has gotten me through many situations and for every hurdle we can get by without too much damage - well, I think it just become easier and soon those hurdles become speed bumps in our journey!!

    Keep on blogging and journaling your thoughts. I truly think it helps us to purge and unload everything that holds us back from reaching that next goal.
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