Ooops, I did it again. So now the week is over and I can get back to what is normal for me. When I wake up in the middle of the night for commode time, I can stay awake for hours watching whatever interests me, or go back to sleep if I can. This past week I didn't have the luxury of doing the 4-5 AM roll-over to snooze for a few more hours. I had to get up and be sure to be ready to get to Vacation Bible School by 9AM. That was only 3 mornings out of 5 in the week, but it took its' toll on me.
I am not usually a sleep-deprived person, and (now I know) don't deal well with it when I am. By Thursday and Friday I was indulging in bagels and cream cheese with coffee for my second breakfast at church, just to keep my energy up. My first was earlier at home. Then on the way home, too tired to think of a decent meal, I stopped to pick up a perfectly healthy fast food side salad to have later on with a can of tuna, but I also decided it was time to end my abstainance from Burger King French fries. That also ended my salt-free policy, as I enjoyed every little grain of salt adhering to every fry! and the indulgence was fabulous. I felt so energized!
I had given up salty foods, potatoes, and other foods on my new food plan, the Type A food diet, which worked wonders for me, helping me lose weight, healing me of GIRD, and other pains and aches. But here I was back again, so easily lured when my sleep deprivation caused me to indulge and change my aquired behaviors of the past seven months back to unhealthy food choices again. I also had pulled a foil wrapped piece of chocolate cake from the freezer the night before, and ate some of it before it got tossed in the garbage.
I must say, I'm glad it happened. I learned about a different side of me, and human nature and behavior, in general. I was also aware of other thought patterns and behaviors that happened very subtly that are not usual for me. Yesterday I heard a much younger woman mention how she was so exhausted but couldn't sleep, just like me, and Thursday night my pastor's wife was quite ill. Other teachers had out of the ordinary family occurances, too. I think we must have had a very successful week for our Lord and Savior if the enemy hit so many of the workers this way. The kids, above all, were so wonderful. I love their sweet little faces with such hope and wonder in their eyes. It makes you want to go back and work even harder for them. Next year I will pray differently and harder for our VBS. I know one thing, the ladies at our little church have TRUE GRIT and I'm proud to be counted among their number.