Saturday, August 04, 2012
I have some fears that are completely understandable. I fear things that could kill me. Wasps, spiders, alligators(I live in Florida), tornadoes. You know, if it could kill me, I try to keep my distance.
But, my biggest(unrational) fears are social situations. I somehow fear that people aren't going to like me if they meet me. I'm pretty awesome, so I know it's more their problem than mine, but it's just going to take time and some courage to get over. I've become such a hermit since I moved 2 years ago and became a stay at home mom. I've always been pretty shy, but it's just gotten worse.
The local rec centers offer Zumba classes(walk in classes for $5-6) and I have been dying to go for about a year now. When I actually have time, my husband will tell me to just go, but that's when my heart starts racing and I find every excuse not to go. I've said my knee hurts, I've called and no one answered so I wouldn't go, and I would take so much time getting ready that I would run out of time to go. I would actually have plenty of time to get there but my nerves would get the better of me and I would say that I don't have time.
I went to Zumba on Wednesday. I gathered all my courage and I went. The first rec center I went to offered the class at 6:30 and the doors were locked. Locked. Normally, I would have just gone home, but I wanted my points this week(and I really wanted to go to Zumba) so I drove to another one 20 minutes away for one that started at 7. I HAD SO MUCH FUN! I am hooked! I can't wait for next week! I even dusted off my Zumba videos and did the 20 min express last night. The instructor is motivation enough to go. If I can have a booty like hers, I would be extremely happy.
This is why I love joining these challenges. I love having that little extra push. I didn't want to let my team down, so I pushed past my racing heart and shaking hands and just did it. I feel so much better now that I did.