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FEAR.

Saturday, August 04, 2012

I have some fears that are completely understandable. I fear things that could kill me. Wasps, spiders, alligators(I live in Florida), tornadoes. You know, if it could kill me, I try to keep my distance.

But, my biggest(unrational) fears are social situations. I somehow fear that people aren't going to like me if they meet me. I'm pretty awesome, so I know it's more their problem than mine, but it's just going to take time and some courage to get over. I've become such a hermit since I moved 2 years ago and became a stay at home mom. I've always been pretty shy, but it's just gotten worse.

The local rec centers offer Zumba classes(walk in classes for $5-6) and I have been dying to go for about a year now. When I actually have time, my husband will tell me to just go, but that's when my heart starts racing and I find every excuse not to go. I've said my knee hurts, I've called and no one answered so I wouldn't go, and I would take so much time getting ready that I would run out of time to go. I would actually have plenty of time to get there but my nerves would get the better of me and I would say that I don't have time.

I went to Zumba on Wednesday. I gathered all my courage and I went. The first rec center I went to offered the class at 6:30 and the doors were locked. Locked. Normally, I would have just gone home, but I wanted my points this week(and I really wanted to go to Zumba) so I drove to another one 20 minutes away for one that started at 7. I HAD SO MUCH FUN! I am hooked! I can't wait for next week! I even dusted off my Zumba videos and did the 20 min express last night. The instructor is motivation enough to go. If I can have a booty like hers, I would be extremely happy.

This is why I love joining these challenges. I love having that little extra push. I didn't want to let my team down, so I pushed past my racing heart and shaking hands and just did it. I feel so much better now that I did.
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  • RYDERB
    emoticon emoticon emoticon What a fabulous accomplishment!

    2994 days ago
  • ZAHNASGRANDMA
    I am afraid to try Zumba, but maybe this will change soon...

    2997 days ago
  • SARASMILING
    YAY!!! That is AWESOME!!! I'm the same way now with social situations. I'm extremely shy when I first meant people but then once I get to know you I can't shut up and you'll know my whole life story pretty quick. lol! You'll be wanting me to get back in my box. lol! Although it seems like I'm less so with men. I guess it's because I don't care what they think or I feel like they're less judgmental .. I wish I could be myself meeting everyone the first time. I fear sometimes I come across bitchy because I get anxiety and close up.
    2997 days ago
  • OUT-OF-ASHES
    Good for you! I am completely socially awkward (pretty much a super spaz), so I can kinda understand where you are coming from and sympathize. Great job for stepping it up!!
    2998 days ago
  • no profile photo CD11712373
    emoticon What a feel good feeling! Keep pushing yourself past the fear and it will get easier every time. emoticon Keep it up! emoticon
    2998 days ago
  • PHATPAT18
    I love Zumba too. I go to a class at the senior center geared more for the older set, with a few grandkids mixed in too. I love it. Soon the kids will be back to school, so it will be the little old ladies only.
    2998 days ago
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