First off...... I just want to thank my good friends Doreen, Kim and Kelly for sticking by me and always checking on me. I have been blessed with so many loyal friends and I love you guys with all of my heart!
As many of you know I went through a very long 6 hour surgery on July 3rd to have a large hiatel hernia fixed that several inches of my stomach was protruding up through into my esophagus. This condition was so severe that NO amount of meds would help my indigestion and reflux. I also had my gall bladder removed which had polyps that I had to have checked via ultrasound every 6 months to make sure the polyps didn't become cancerous and last but not least I had a Rouen Y Gastric By-pass for weight loss. My gastro specialist told me last November that I needed to have these things resolved now and that I needed to lose 100 pounds ASAP. He suggested I have the bypass surgery done along with repairing all my other ailments. I had to go through 6 months of assertive weight loss and training for this surgery so I knew how to handle my diet that they put you on after surgery. Since Christmas of last year to date I have lost 77 pounds. I still have that much or more to lose but it is coming off. But more importantly I no longer have reflux, indigestion or sleep deprivation. I was plagued with gall bladder pain since I was 24 but no one could find a thing wrong with it until recently. I can now sleep in bed instead of a recliner and I am getting restful sleep in bed in ANY position now.
So after one hernia repair, no more gall bladder and 77 pounds later I am feeling like a new person. The life changing diet I am on now isn't a far cry from how I ate before given the fact that nothing I ate ever settled well on my stomach. I just have cut way back on portions but still fix food in the healthy manner I have always cooked. My attitude has changed from not being sleep deprived and feeling so good....not just from the weight loss but from not feeling completely and hopelessly sick every day that I have for past 10 years. My health just kept deteriorating and with all the problems my husband has with his health and my daughters marriage issues I honestly didn't care if I lived another day. I was so absorbed with keeping my husband healthy and helping take care of my daughter and two grandsons that I just put my health on the back burner. Two months before surgery I realized just how serious things were getting when twice my husband had the phone out ready to contact 911 because I had aspirated my stomach contents and wasn't able to get my air. It was a 2 hour struggle for my life each time but I was determined not to go via ambulance!! Yes I am very stubborn! My esophagus was cancer waiting to happen according to my gastro doctor, he told me it wasn't "IF" I get throat cancer due to erosion from reflux but "WHEN". I was scared to death! So the 6 hour surgery was almost a relief and at that point and I was ready to risk possible death during surgery to get some relief! I prayed to God before I went in that if he saw fit to take me home so be it as I was ready and to guide the surgeons skillful hands for a successful surgery. Well he granted that prayer and I am now living proof of a new healthier me. THANK YOU GOD!!
I am not saying this surgery is meant for everyone but it was for me as I just had to many health issues working against me and I would soon not be here for my family who need me desperately. The bypass surgery is ONLY a weight loss tool and if you abuse that tool you WILL gain your weight back. You have to make those life long decisions to give up old habits..mine is portion control. Thank goodness I have never been addicted to alcohol, sugar, pop or junk foods so the portion thing I can handle and this bypass helps me attain that goal.
Getting back to my surgery....a week after surgery I had an appointment with my surgery team and the doctor told me that they didn't know how I escaped getting aspirated pneumonia from the numerous times (to many to even count) that I aspirated stomach acids into my lungs. He looked at me with a very serious face and told me that I was at a "lethal" stage of my health before this surgery and that if I had gotten aspirated pneumonia given my age and my asthma condition I very well would NOT have survived. I was astounded by that when he told me and again I was soulfully humbled that God had carried me through this whole ordeal unscathed!
I found out during this time how many loyal friends I had that prayed for a success and those prayers and the love and devotion of God and my precious friends have brought me through this. I wake up every day ready to "LIVE" and not just get through each day half way and hoping that God would just take me away from it all. Yes that IS exactly how I was feeling....not suicidal don't get me wrong there but more of complete despair!
Now I have more energy and confidence then I ever did before and I am ready to truly LIVE life instead of hide away and just get by. I have purchased another horse and ready to trail ride with my old buddies again. I haven't used my asthma inhaler but only three times since July 3rd where before I used it at LEAST 3 times a day if not more!! My knees, hips and back are so happy now and my bed is glad to see me again LOLOL!!
. Yesterday I cleaned the whole front of my barn and only took a couple of breaks....that was a five hour job I might add!!! I have gone from a size 30 jean to a 24 and those are getting so baggy now that I could nearly fit another person in them!!!
. Life IS good and worth living and if you don't think so then it is time to sit down and count all the good things in your life that is well worth living for. That, in itself, is an attitude adjuster!!
As in the words of Betty White:
"Look at everything as though you were seeing it for the first time or the last time. Then your time on earth will be filled with glory."
We only have one shot at life lets make it our own personal RODEO!!! Get on and ride the best you can and if you fall off just get back up and brush off and keep on keepin' on!! YEE HAWW!