Past, present, and look out world!
Friday, August 31, 2012
So last Thursday in my sparklive meeting I was given the homework of creating a blog that discussed where we were 6 months ago, where we are today, and where we think we will be in 6 months. Well, we had 1 week to write the blog that was due yesterday.... It took me a little longer to get into it but I finally am at a point where I can sit down and write this blog.
6 months ago I was just starting with sparklive and first met Krystie, whos class i just happened to stumble into on a sunday night. I absolutely loved the class and instantly Krystie and i built a great friendship. She was more than a sparkleader to me, she truly became a great friend. At the beginning of March I started showing some signs of life and, for those who follow my blog, I wrote a blog about how important I am and knowing that I have to do something for me. I felt like I was on track and moving in the right direction but little by little I let old me take over and i went back to putting everyone else above me again. Slowly but surely I sleeked back into the corner and didn't care about myself.
Once again though, Krystie stepped up and helped me lay it all out there, helped me see I needed help. I was eating out all the time, I wasn't working out, and I thought I could lose weight JUST by eating less than i ate before and drinking a lot of water. Completely ignoring everything I had learned the last 6 months from spark live, everything I learned from Krystie and everything I am. Slowly I lost who I am.
So fast forward to Sunday August 26th (yes, like 5 days ago). I had a really crappy day and actually found myself scared to talk to Krystie about it, so I reached out to Kat (knowing fully that Kat would 'rat' me out to Krystie about everything I was saying) and Krystie laid into me. Man she let me have it. In fact, at that point I thought about writing a blog and the ONLY thing you need to know about that blog (which I never wrote) is the title... I got chewed out AND I LIKED IT.
That speech kicked my butt and started a whole crazy spiral... I worked out for about 45 minutes Sunday night, (which is obvious, anyone who gets chewed out is going to react in a way to do what 'they're supposed to do'.) Okay, that's fine, write off sunday night, but I worked out monday, tuesday, and wednesday. Then today, when i got paid, i went out and spent 600 dollars ON ME. I bought a kinect, 2 sets of dumbbells, and 3 months of vi shakes. I WILL be on track, I will be kicking some major butt!
So that's the past, the present AND now it's time for the future, and damn it looks bright. First and foremost, I have exactly 4 months till new years eve and you can bet your ass when i get into omaha I will NOT be in the 300's anymore. When I go out that weekend with Krystie and Kat for our party weekend you can bet your ass that I will have completed my 90 day vi challenge, I will have worked out at least 5 times/day and I will be WELL on track getting myself back in line. There is no messing around, there is no time to play anymore.... I screwed around enough the last 6 months wasting the time.... well, I'm not playing anymore....
So here it is world, it's your warning shot, I'm coming for you.