SOFT_VAL67
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my heart is heavy, and not from weight....

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Today I have just really been super distracted. I had a good morning walk and have stayed pretty well within calorie range. But I just havent had time or the mental fortitude to get on here and Spark.
I am super duper distracted. Yesterday I spent some time with my dear friend....the one I have blogged about in the past, for those who regularly read, the one who has this upcoming trial.
And that trial is now one week away. I am scared for him and for my mental ability to handle the stress if he is found guilty.
He is holding onto a piece of my heart right now and I cant focus on other issues.
Like the fact that my scale hasnt moved all week, despite the fact, I have walked daily and stayed on calorie range.
But there are alot of other issues floating out around me right now.
Home life is stressful right now as I have blogged about.
But I am getting back into the weight and strength training more and starting to look into some new toning exercises.
Tummy mostly.
I hope everyone knows how much I appreciate their encouragement and good thoughts.
I promise to try to touch base with as many as I can on a personal level soon.
We took pics, since this might be our last chance to get any together...but none of them turned out so great, we were beginning to wonder what forces were preventing us from being seen in a picture together....haha, he is that friend who thinks the same nutty thoughts that I do.
The thoughts that he might go away for life scares me so deeply. But when I am with him or talking to him, I just try to be upbeat and positive and let him know that I really believe in him.
And then I come home and bite my nails....I wont have any once this trial gets underway.
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  • NELLJONES
    I hope this all turns out the way you want.
    2949 days ago
  • VERAWILLSUCCEED
    sure hope everything works out in your friends favor.
    2949 days ago
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