whats it called, ummm, whats it called???
Monday, October 01, 2012
Distractions....once again overwhelm me. I feel bad, really sick, its like I am missing a part of myself or something. That feeling you get when you are maybe 13 or so and have your first crush on someone, then you see them talking to someone else....remember that feeling??
Like the world is crumbling around you and you will never recover?
I dont know why I am feeling this way, or what brought it on....the possible loss of a good friend???
Not getting on the walking track today and just feeling an overall feeling of crappiness!!!
Could it be the change of life these old women tell me about???
I mean, I am only 45....still having a pretty regular cycle, but maybe thats it.
Maybe could be the upcoming move and the fact that now we are seriously discussing waiting, which makes me giddy and nervous all at the same time.
Or, a lack of good quality sleep, or the fact that I turned 45 yesterday.
Well, whatever it is, I do not know, but, I know, I feel really bad and hope to get to feeling back to normal soon.