Hanging Tough, Missing Dad, Mom holding up better than us!!

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Hello All My Sparkies!!!

Having just lost my Dad on Oct. 4, after he hung around long enough to celebrate his 74th birthday on 9-26 and his 54th Anniversary on 9-20.....So glad he did that for Mom....and us! He suffers no more and is at peace. I was blessed to have the time to say goodbye and make our peace, I love him and will always, always miss him...He was AWESOME!!

After he passed I DID show him all my tattoos (that he didn't know about and would of had A FIT OVER!) and I told Mom that surprisingly enough, he didn't say a damn thing!!! LOL!! :)

Did great at the viewing, so many friends from my past showed up I was so touched.
Some had met met Dad, and you would not forget him if you had...

Though the morning of the funeral, went the way it ALWAYS DOES for me:

I sent Doug and Daniel to Walmart, told Doug to pick up a pair of Khaki pants, size 14 Reg. just like the ones I held in front of his face, and get Daniel's hair cut. He came home with a pair of black slacks that were too long.

I shaved Nicks thick hair, in the bathroom, throwing clumps in the toilet, then he wanted to sit down, so then it was all over the floor. When we were done, Nick said he would vacuum it up, I said GREAT! So I went and ironed shirts in the kitchen and soon Nick comes in saying he is SORRY.........OK........ so he shows me that he cleaned the floor AND ALSO CLEANED THE HAIR OUT OF THE TOILET!!! Yes, water is spewing out out of my Sears Kenmore that I use at work.....I cannot say out loud what I was thinking, I just held back tears, and turned the vacuum upside down on the towels and walked away.

Went back to kitchen to dish out shirts and 1 of the kids tie's is missing, WAS just on the table with shirts, but none the less, GONE.... Haven't found it yet! Ok...Get in the car, already running late, supposed to be there at 1:30, its now 1:40...we jump in the car, no gas, ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Doug "didn't notice" we stop and get gas QUICKLY, I haul ass to the funeral home, slide up in the parking lot practically on 2 wheels, at 4 minutes to 2:00....walked in and lost goes on as I know it :)

Thank you all for your support this entire time, it means more than you will ever know or that I can express, I love you all, and will be jumping back on SPARKS with both feet!!!!


This was MY special birthday cake to him, his favorite...Moonpie!!! LOL!!!

October 5th 2012:
Many of you that have been a part of my life know that my Dad has been sick for some time now. If you ever had the pleasure of meeting him, you would most definitely remember him. If you didn' missed a good one. Last night, surrounded by all of his family....we were able to say our goodbyes, as it was time for Dad to go. Please keep our Dad and our family in your thoughts and prayers.
I am proud and honored to have been his daughter.
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    Janet. I am sure you dad was sitting and watching from above the struggling family that did so much to get there in time, and maybe he was smiling a little?
    I lost my dad 3 weeks after my wedding, when I was 26. It is exactly 26 years ago..... Half a life without him....... So I sure know what you are talking about and how you are feeling. My thoughts are with you these weeks.
    But please tell us - did the vaccuum cleaner survive? Is it still alive?
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    3028 days ago
    emoticon I lost my dad this year too. I'm so sorry for your loss.
    3057 days ago
    I am so so sorry for your loss.

    3058 days ago
    I admire your strength. You're a great tribute to your Dad.
    3060 days ago
  • JUNEAU2010
    I am writing through knowing tears, 02/13/2005 I lost my dad. I held his hand as he died and I knew my life would never be the same. It has not been, but that searing pain that rendered me unable to speak, eat or sleep for an entire week (no exaggeration) has subsided to a dull ache that twinges to sharp pains at predictable times (his birthday, father's day, etc) and unexpected times. That dull pain is "easier" than the searing pain, but....

    Hugs and love and prayers
    3060 days ago
    I know how much it hurts losing a dad. Mine passed away Sept. 29 was 4 years ago. There are still times when some random reminder hits me like a ton of bricks, but for the most part, it does get better with time. I just wanted to comment on something you mentioned that sort of struck me. My parents anniversary is also Sept 20 and this would be 54 years for them, too! He lived just 9 days after their 50th and had just celebrated his 73rd birthday on Sept 2. It seems they have a lot in common. Maybe they will meet up in heaven and become great buddies! I'm keeping you in my thoughts and hoping your pain eases in the days to come. emoticon
    3060 days ago
    It's so easy to tell how much you loved your dad by what you've written here. I lost my dad at 19, but he wasn't my favorite person. You were lucky to have a dad that was so awesome.
    3060 days ago
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    In spite of the sadness of your Dad's passing, you still find the humor in life.

    God bless you. I continue to pray for you daily!
    3060 days ago
  • -RUBIES-
    I love reading your about your dear father in your blog. I'm so sorry to hear of his passing. It's great that he lived to see his recent birthday and annivesary.

    I must say, it was funny reading some of the other parts... the tattoo comment and your adventure to the funeral home - funny stuff!
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  • ORODEO73
    I am both sad and happy. My prayers toyou and your family and your fathers soul as your journey continues.
    3060 days ago
    Janet sorry to hear of your dad's passing. That's great that he celebrated his anniversary and birthday.

    3060 days ago
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