A change in plans

Monday, October 15, 2012

Funny how life never seems to go the way we want it to and even sillier that we expect it to!

On September 15, 2012 I fell while stepping over the baby gate from my kitchen to my hallway. I had something in each hand and couldn't brace myself when my right foot got caught on the gate and I went straight down on bent knees on hard linoleum. It hurt.

What I didn't know (that I found out a number of weeks later) is that I had fully torn my PCL and had also torn my medial meniscus. The irony of this injury while my husband is in Physical Therapy Tech school isn't lost on me. I have a wonderful PT that I am working with here in the community and will be meeting with an Orthopedic Surgeon later this month.

This has truly sidelined me from my goals. I haven't weighed myself because I know I have honestly gained weight. I lost much of my motivation to even be here on SP in the past few months and this injury kind of did me in.

This past weekend I spent with about 79 other ladies at Christ Haven Lodge in Florissant, CO! It was beautiful and a wonderful weekend of worshiping God and learning how to find the joy in every situation. It's easy to find the joy in the good situations but not as easy in the bad times. I've been losing myself to the bad situations (and there have been too many of them in the past couple of months) but I have a new goal to find joy in EVERY situation.

So I've started a joy journal. I'm not writing the joy stuff on SP, that's not my goal. But this weekend, a photo was taken of a group of us at the retreat and the sweater I am wearing in the picture is really huge on me. To see that reminder of how far I have come was very encouraging and it's given me a new goal.

My new goal for SP is to be VERY diligent of what I am eating and tracking EVERYTHING!! I've lost my focus on my food. Since going GF I just assumed "oh, I can eat this. It's GF!" but I haven't been eating as many fruits and veggies, I've been emotionally eating again and it's time to reign it in. I may not be able to exercise but I can control what goes in my mouth. I'm not burning as much energy so I need to really focus on not over fueling my body.

So there you go. I know my absence has caused many to stop following me and that's okay. I'll make new friends as I go here lol. I just feel like I'm starting over and am so very grateful to those who have stuck by me!
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  • 22CHUNKY
    So sorry to learn of your knee injury...I can relate. However, as you said, though you can not exercise physically, you ARE in control of what goes in your mouth. Often times, we use circumstances to justify poor choices. However, we know in our hearts we are only making excuses. Don't let this accident be an excuse for abandonment of your Spark plan. This journey is about you and the benefits YOU will receive. Remember...You want to be better able to care for and ENJOY those little guys GOD has given you and your husband. Properly caring for yourself is also a gift of love to your sons and husband. They love you and need you.
    2766 days ago
    Christ Haven is a beautiful place! Glad you had a great time. One of my favorite verses is James 1:2 Consider it pure joy my brothers when you face trials of many kinds. It is so good to have a Joy journal -- looking for how God is working in your life. It is amazing how much more closer you get to Him during the tough times. I can look back on those hard times and praise Him for what He was doing and has done! I will be praying for you - I know what it is like to have a torn meniscus. It was partly because of mine that I got a gym membership.
    2778 days ago
    So sorry about your injury. I have been sidelined twice with knee injuries and later realized that those were times I did get really serious about planning meals and tracking and staying in my range - both times I lost weight even with a month or more off cardio exercise. And the wisdom and peace you may gain during this time are even more valuable than losing a few more pounds.. Lately I have been impatient that weight loss is getting slower for me - but when I put on old clothes and they look like clown clothes - I realize I have come a long way. if getting the rest of the way takes awhile - so be it... How tough to be injured when you have kiddos at home though - hope you have help around the house!!!
    2779 days ago
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    Hooray for the wisdom you are gaining! The injury is hard ... But you don't have to let it totally define you, and as you said, you still do have control over foods and portions, and you CAN make good choices! "in this life you will have troubles, but be of Good Cheer, I have overcome this world!" glad you had the "too big shirt" reminder of how far you've come ... Go forward in His strength! Hugs, Susie
    2779 days ago
    It's good to hear from you! I've been thinking about you and wondering if you were ok. Sorry to hear about your injury!!! :( That stinks!
    It sounds like you are working out a plan, though and staying focused on your food choices. Glad you got to go to the retreat! I'm sure that was a real boost for you!
    Hang in there and keep on Sparking! :) I'm cheering you on!
    2779 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10691323
    I'm sorry to hear about your injury, but it seems that you ahve a great plan. Good luck to you.
    2779 days ago
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