secret numbers and fat bas***d belly!!!
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Sometimes I need a reality check. Probably more often than not...so, there is this one song I play when I feel life is spiraling out of control, or when I just need a slap back to reality.
Or when I just want to be reminded, that we are all human and make mistakes and learn, hopefully, and move on.
Today I got on the scale again, not my regular weigh in day. I know, I am getting back into that bad habit of weighing too often, but this week its been for good reason.
That wall I had hit, is beginning to slowly crumble.
It took three weeks, but I am finally beginning to lose weight again.
I have lost 5 pounds. Today when I got on the scale I seen a number that a month ago, four months ago, seemed impossible to achieve!!
I never dreamed when I first gave up soda and began walking daily, and adding weights, and gave up junk food and began really sparking and journaling my food, that I would reach this number.
I am no where close to where I want to be, but its just beyond the horizon, I can see the forrest thru the trees now.
Nothing is impossible to achieve, look at the dude who jumped from outerspace last week!!!!
I know that I have a long road ahead, and I plan on walking that road daily, learning the scenery, and figureing out new paths!!!
Methaphors....but this is real now.
So, I have been asking myself when I am going to share my number. I read a friends blog recently on this subject and I think its silly that I say to myself, "wait til you lose a little more".....of course, when I share how much I have lost, everyone, who can do math that is, will be able to figure out how much I weighed to begin.
So, I am still a number sharing virgin!!!
I guess I will be ready to admit it soon enough....if the scale keeps going in the RIGHT direction that is.
I got to thinking about my blog about not losing inches and sizes quickly enough.
I went out to lunch with my mom, son and sister yesterday....(plans for my friends bday lunch got postponed, will blog on that later)....and we also did a little shopping.
All day my pants were so baggy.
Here is the thing, my pants are lose in the butt, and around the upper thigh area, so I know that I am losing, but in the waist they are still about the same.
I can wear a smaller shirt size, and fitted shirts, however, my tummy is still there and there and here and a little over here too.
So, no matter how well they fit, and make me look thinner in the waist and chest, cause they arent loose and baggy shirts, they still fit snugly around my stomach.
This damn stomach. The pain in my side!!!
Guess I will just keep doing my best and work it and accept what I cant change.
Hoping everyone has a great weekend.