The Downward Spiral
Sunday, October 21, 2012
For the last few weeks, I have NOT been a good girl. I will do well all day long, but at night, I lose all control. I haven't gained a lot of weight back - only about 3 pounds - but I feel like crap. My body hurts all the time (because I quit my nightly walking a month ago), I feel tired and sluggish, but most of all, I feel like I have utterly abandoned myself. Where I had so much pride in myself a few week and months ago has now become a mental game of beating myself to a pulp. I need to get a grip. I have so many goals and no "umph" to do them. I don't want to fail. I want to get to my goals and be proud of myself. I just feel like a loser (only not - because I'm not losing anymore!) I know how to do it right, just need the discipline to do it. I have NO will power. *sigh* Today is the start of a new week. Need to do it right and get back on track.