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Sometimes change tells you when to move on.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Hello to all my bright shining Sparklers! I have been absent. I guess a bit under the weather. My job changed drastically on Sept. 18th. We were acquired by a large company and the restructuring and integration ended up with me being told that because Account Manager X was leaving her job in NJ, I would take over her book of business and my clients in Chicago would be redistributed (by the end of November). I was told they use a different software platform in the NJ office and I would get to learn it. I was also told I wouldn't have to move. Of course if they wanted me to move, I'd tell them no chance in hell. ha!

Anyhow, I went to NJ for 7 days of training and I find out all the account managers on this software PROGRAM their own accounts! They do their own IT work. This disturbs me. I studied communication in college, not computer science.

It's been nearly 6 weeks now and I still don't know what I am doing and every day I want to throw in the towel and quit. I don't care about "baud rates, modems, dial strings, why a pager is bad" (I work in telecommunications). It makes me sick to my stomach. Every day I cry before work and after work. I no longer enjoy my job. I hate it and I fantasize about quitting or holding out and being fired. I am also applying for new jobs.

So that's where I am. Stressed up to HERE. It makes me sad that upper management changed my job so drastically. And to top it off, no one in our Chicago office knows this software. Nor did their jobs change. I feel like they set me up to fail.

I have however been going to Pilates on Mondays, Learn to Swim on Tuesdays and Water Aerobics on Wednesdays. These classes started in September. They are a godsend. I have to focus on the class so my mind can't think about work.

One day at a time, I suppose.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I'm just in shock. This summer was challenging with taking FMLA to care for my mom (she had spinal surgery and is 1000 better! And doing well it's great!) and then coming back to the city to get back into my routine and that routine was pulled from under my feet.

Really wanting to quit....
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    My job has been stressful from the get go. But I rolled with it because I enjoyed my clients. Now the job is stressful x 10 and I'm not even with my clients anymore. I'm with all new clients.

    In the long run this job is no longer for me. The thought of having to program and doing some minor programming that they taught me so far doesn't thrill me. If this job was something I was interviewing for, I'd never take it.

    I am looking for something else. It's just sad that the head of our group magically thinks that we all should also program our own accounts. It's sad that he's passing my former clients to other people when I established the relationships that are now nearly 6 years old.

    But one thing is certain: time to move on. Change I must. I no longer fit into this job. It's no longer for me.
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    You have to do what is right for you, but you can't go on like this! I worked in a very stressful job a few years ago and my health started to suffer. Luckily, I was in a financial situation where I was able to resign and look for something different. Work takes up a huge chunk of your life, you have to be happy doing it. I hope things get better for you.
    2672 days ago
    Change is always difficult...especially if someone else created the change for you without warning. Two years ago I made a drastic change by my own choice because I was not happy where I was. I quit a job for the first time in my life at the age of 5o. I was unemployeed for 3 months and ended up working at the job of my dreams. My pay was almost cut in half but now two years later I am back to getting paid what I was and I love my job!!! My advice is go with your gut, follow your heart and know that what ever step this is...for now...it WILL get to a better place! emoticon
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  • no profile photo EVIE4NOW
    Wow.. seems like you almost have to go back to school and learn computer programming or at least find a mentor. Know what it's like to feel all alone and struggling. Hope you can find a clear lane to sail down.
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