Sometimes change tells you when to move on.
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Hello to all my bright shining Sparklers! I have been absent. I guess a bit under the weather. My job changed drastically on Sept. 18th. We were acquired by a large company and the restructuring and integration ended up with me being told that because Account Manager X was leaving her job in NJ, I would take over her book of business and my clients in Chicago would be redistributed (by the end of November). I was told they use a different software platform in the NJ office and I would get to learn it. I was also told I wouldn't have to move. Of course if they wanted me to move, I'd tell them no chance in hell. ha!
Anyhow, I went to NJ for 7 days of training and I find out all the account managers on this software PROGRAM their own accounts! They do their own IT work. This disturbs me. I studied communication in college, not computer science.
It's been nearly 6 weeks now and I still don't know what I am doing and every day I want to throw in the towel and quit. I don't care about "baud rates, modems, dial strings, why a pager is bad" (I work in telecommunications). It makes me sick to my stomach. Every day I cry before work and after work. I no longer enjoy my job. I hate it and I fantasize about quitting or holding out and being fired. I am also applying for new jobs.
So that's where I am. Stressed up to HERE. It makes me sad that upper management changed my job so drastically. And to top it off, no one in our Chicago office knows this software. Nor did their jobs change. I feel like they set me up to fail.
I have however been going to Pilates on Mondays, Learn to Swim on Tuesdays and Water Aerobics on Wednesdays. These classes started in September. They are a godsend. I have to focus on the class so my mind can't think about work.
One day at a time, I suppose.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I'm just in shock. This summer was challenging with taking FMLA to care for my mom (she had spinal surgery and is 1000 better! And doing well it's great!) and then coming back to the city to get back into my routine and that routine was pulled from under my feet.
Really wanting to quit....