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Aha moment!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

I've FINALLY realized what everyone has been telling me all along. I am NOT ready for a new relationship...sexual or otherwise. I won't bore all of you with the details of the last several weeks, but lets just say, it ain't been pretty! I have to face the fact that I am not ready to meet anyone. I guess I just didn't want to admit that because it would mean admitting that what happened with my fiance and me had a bigger impact on me than I thought. I didn't want to give him so much power, but I'm only hurting myself. There. I've admitted it. There's only a slightly sour taste in my mouth.

I've kind of slipped on my dieting lately. I've gained about 4 lbs and haven't been exercising. I am choosing to blame that on the horrendous virus I've had for the last two weeks. I'm still not feeling 100% but I did manage to workout with my trainer today. I feel better than I have in weeks and it occurred to me I might actually be addicted to exercise! I've heard that urban legend before, but I never thought it could happen to me! I'm shocked and elated!

Aside from the many man problems (mostly self-inflicted) I've had lately, I am also facing some major changes at work. The RNs on both of my units are leaving. They both leave this week. I'm really sad because I adore both of them and we work very well together. I know one of the replacements because she already works there. She's very funny and nice so hopefully we'll have a good working relationship as well. As for the other unit, I have no idea who's taking that. I think they're hiring from outside the facility.

I really, really need sleep.

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    It'll take time but you will get there. In fact when you really stop looking, AND needing that relationship, it'll will happen on it's own. I promise. I don't what kind of music you like but I've really like Taylor Swift's new album Red lately. Especially "begin again"

    Take care of yourself!!
    2906 days ago
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