I've been sabotaging myself this round!!.
Making excuses, and couching them as something else; thank G.O.D. my team cappies are NOT having it!
I posted my FIRST gain *gasp* this round, yesterday.
I could say... it's because of.. a buncha things, or one, or several, but i WONT.
It's because i didn't stick with the program i signed up for, this round!
This is embarrassing, to say the least. I have been a Good Depity, for several rounds, and a couple ago, i was quite upset! when i thought i wasn't going to be able to stay on, for health reasons. But this time, EYE EFFT UP.
I was on vacation with family, & did lose n' get exercise, but i neglected my duties as a sheriff, and shortchanged not only! my TEAM, but myself too!
I'm glad at least that i've kept coming back to read what's been going on, so at LEAST i've been able to read when our cappy is, as one teamie said, 'opening her can o' whup-a$$' !
Even IF i don't get to stay on for next round, I want to at LEAST re-prove! to our teammates that i CARE about them, and NOT leave them thinking that i didn't!
Sheesh; this sounds aLOT like a time years ago, when i was falling down on the job and my boss told me so; back then, i was inspired to Prove to him! that I was NOT the Slacker! he saw me acting like; and fortunately i straightened up and we eventually became sort of friends.
It's a little disappointing! that i haven't grown more in the past years, but thank goodness at least I have heard the criticism and am finally admitting to myself that i NEED to HEED it.
~here's the titled part of the blog~
I WILL say to myself, 'You don't need to hurt yourself trying to fill the void with food!'