It's a New Day!
Tuesday, December 04, 2012
I had a really awesome workout at the gym last night, burned 632 calories in the one hour zumba class, my cheeks were red and i was out of breath which i know is a great thing. i also did 15 min on the elliptical, was supposed to do 30 min but was totally winded and my asthma was flaring, so i did 15 min.
got home and cut up strawberries and made brownies for a holiday party i am attending this evening. took a shower, took a nice long hot shower, don't do long showers often, but just needed it and pondered a lot while in the shower. i don't like that i have gained at least 15 lbs maybe even 20 since having my appendix removed in september. i let myself eat whatever without exercising for 7 weeks. not a good idea. but it is now all past me and i need to move forward with good strides. i decided that i need to do my cardio at the gym, whether i want to or not, i need to eat better and just say no at work. no matter how much i really want it, i need to do this for me.
this weight loss journey is for me, not for anyone else, i need to make me happy and yes i have others helping me and God is always with me, i need to talk to him more whether i have a good day or a bad day, God will move me forward in the right direction. caran is also here to keep me on track and yes he inflicts pain, ha ha (for those who don't know who caran is, he is my personal trainer at the gym), some of the time but all for good things.
the shower last night really got to me, just hot water spurting at me, but me thinking and being alone to think was a great thing. today i feel better in that sense. i make my protein smoothie every morning, but it is what i eat after that that contributes to my bad habits. i have my snacks with me today and i am taking my vitamins.
ME, ME, ME, ME - keep telling myself, this is for me, no one else, no matter how much they tell me, i NEED to lose the weight once and for all for ME. yes, i love to bake, but i do not need to eat what i bake, others want me to bake for them and i get paid for some of the baking. i love baking and creating crafts and that is what i need to focus on, my creativity. now i just need to get more creative in the gym and everything will eventually fall into place.