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Dec. BSG Challenge WK 1 The Toughest Thing to Over come this year 2012

Thursday, December 06, 2012

This was a no brainer for me. The hardest thing I have had to over come this year was the death of my husband, Ray. We all know that losing someone close to you makes life different. When you have been married like I was for 23 years. Waking up and finding the spouse that you have been through the good times and the bad times with is no longer there. You feel like there is a hole in your life. I walked around in a fog from March to June. Keeping myself busy with friends and the two orginizations that I belong to and Spark. I didn't lose any weight be exact I gained most of the weight back I had lost back. The worst was when I got sick with the flu and then my doctor diagnosed me with depression.

After putting me on a mild anti-deppressant three things happened that changed my world. My deppression was under control, exercising became more important, and I found a church home. All three of things have been a big help. Actually finding a church helped bring the other two things back into perspective. I am now walking longer distances, and my faith has helped me clear the dark fog of deppression. I had been suffering from. All of that weight I had gained back is gone, I am at the lowest weight since I started 4 years ago.

I owe a huge emoticon to all my Spark Friends for their love and support during my darkest hours. All of you are very important to me.
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  • no profile photo CD5651955
    I can't imagine what you went through, and am glad that you found what you did that helps. God Bless. Susan
    2998 days ago
  • BEFIT021
    Oh, I can't imagine how hard losing your husband must have been! I'm sure your husband is looking down on you and just busting with pride at all that you have accomplished!
    3000 days ago
  • no profile photo CD11085628
    Ray would be so proud of you! I'm glad things have improved and you have dealt with the depression. I was on meds the last year I worked (a most unpleasant and stressful situation) and they really pulled me out of the dark spot I was in. I'm glad the same happened for you. I agree with you about your church "home." It is so important to have that in our lives!
    Sheila
    3001 days ago
  • LMB-ESQ
    No doubt, it has been a difficult year for you. I guess you could look at it this way... you will never have a more difficult time than you have had this past year. I am glad you are feeling so good!
    3001 days ago
  • CATHYSFITLIFE
    I can only imagine how hard it must have for you to lose Ray! You are a strong woman and I am so glad you found a way to persevere! Going through depression and gaining your weight back is understandable. I'm happy you found a church home that helped you bring things back into perspective. I'm also glad that your Spark Friends were here to help you through those dark times. I'm so proud of you for losing your weight again and pushing yourself to walk farther!

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    3001 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8703805
    Thank you for sharing this blog. You've been through a lot and have come through it like a champ. Like Angela, I think Ray is so proud of you, as are your SparkFriends. Here's looking forward to a peaceful and blessed holiday season and a continuing success filled 2013!
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    3001 days ago
  • CJWORDPLAY
    I have continued to hold you in my heart. Your love shines through all that you do and share with your friends. Thank you for being open about your struggles and helping us understand more about you. You matter. Hugs, CJ
    3001 days ago
  • BARBIE176
    Awesome blog Debbie. You know how sorry I am for your loss, but I am happy that you are finally able to deal in a healthy way with your loss. Woo hoo on getting treated for your depression so that you can get on track for your healthier lifestyle. You are doing great and congratulations on losing weight! I am so happy that you found a new church and church family to help you through your days. While Spark is awesome, the real life is awesome in different ways. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3001 days ago
  • LJCANNON
    emoticon What an amazing year you had! Life will never be the same, but you have proven that you are More Than A Match for any crisis that you will face.
    I am so happy that you found a Church Home.
    3001 days ago
  • AMYBELLES
    Debbie, you are a strong woman, who I admire very much! You had a devastating experience losing your life partner this year, and the depression and weight gain is very understandable. But you came back kicking! I'm so glad that your new church and Spark Friends helped you through the dark days! Way to go losing the weight again, and exercising! emoticon emoticon
    3001 days ago
  • CHUBRUB3
    I am sorry for the loss of your husband Ray.
    You are doing so well my dear friend, you have your tough times, but your emoticon and will shine through. I think he would be so proud of you.
    Hugs,
    Angela

    3001 days ago
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