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Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Dear Sheri-Lynn...Just wanted to say hello and that you are missed by all....But i miss you the most.....You stole my heart for 23 years and for that i thank you.....The kids love you very much and miss you every day.....We are doing the best we can but it's just not the same with out you.....I fined myself crying more every day and having a hard time every day and had to go to counselling to chat and get things off of my chest.....I know that you wouldn't want me to be sad and to move on and remember all of the good times that we shared and our story book relationship but i can't right now....My heart aches everyday and some days i just want to crawl in a hole and never come out....But Life goes on and they tell me that it will get better with time....I hope so...Anyway my love your out of pain and in perfect health now and for that i am thank full for you...I love you very much and will never stop loving you....Chat soon....See ya...Love Mark.....
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  • GAYEMC
    I know how hard the holidays can be with the recent loss of a loved one. I'm so sorry it's such a struggle for you. What a beautiful letter you wrote.
    2887 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    I do not know you, but feel your pain. Wishing you peace. It is so difficult when life goes on when you don't necessarily feel like that's what YOU want to do!

    Hugs and prayers. So sorry.
    2889 days ago
  • BUTEAFULL
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    2889 days ago
  • INDIANOAKS
    Dear Mark... What a BEAUTIFUL tribute to a BEAUTIFUL woman! You were so lucky to have found each other and to have shared such a love!! But like I once heard, "Where is the good in goodbye?!".... My heart just breaks for you...

    There is something that I read after our son died that has stuck with me through the years... It went like this (give or take a few words but you'll get the idea)... "How lucky I am to have had something that makes saying goodbye so hard." As hard as it was to say goodbye to our son, to bury him next to my father-in-law, if I stop and think about it and ask myself, would I rather have NOT had Jake?? The answer to that, is a resounding NO -- I wouldn't trade our time with him for ANYTHING... Yeah, it sucks BIG TIME that he died -- and it's SO UNFAIR -- beyond words...but I was blessed to have been able to be his mom -- and my life is forever changed because of him...

    So SOMEHOW, if you can hang in there, take it day by day, and just keep telling yourself that you were blessed to have FOUND your soul-mate in Sheri -- to have had that time with her... I truly DO feel the pain will start to ease up a bit... Little by little... But it WILL take a LONG time -- so be gentle with yourself...

    I can remember feeling very angry after our son died -- seemed like EVERYONE else's world just went on -- and ours had STOPPED -- had been destroyed... And all these people spewed all these platitudes to us -- none of which meant ANYTHING - because our son was DEAD and they could NEVER understand that -- unless they had "been there"... One thing that I found extremely helpful was finding a support group of other bereaved parents. I NEVER thought I would be "one of those people" that would join a support group EVER!!!! But it's the ONE thing I found comfort in... THOSE people TRULY understood -- THEY knew the pain of losing a child -- the unfairness of it -- and the grief that overwhelmed us on a daily basis for a long time... But THEY knew -- they KNEW...and there's nothing better than feeling understood -- that you are NOT alone in your battle to get through the day...

    I wonder if there is anything like that near you possibly?? Counseling is great -- but personally, unless the counselor you're talking to has gone through losing a spouse like you did -- and was left with two young children at home to have to raise on their own -- I'm thinking they won't TRULY understand what you're dealing with and going through... Definitely DON'T stop going to counseling -- but maybe supplement that with a support group if you can find one -- the one could cover the "professional" side -- the other the "real life" or "day to day" side of things... Just my opinion...

    You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers -- I have been following your story since Sheri was diagnosed -- and will continue to do so in the coming months... Thanks for continuing to keep us updated and KNOW that you have ALOT of people that CARE about you --- and your boys -- here on Spark!!!! And your love for Sheri -- is an inspiration to us!!

    Hang in there... emoticon
    2889 days ago
  • JAMER123
    Mark, My heart aches for you. There is not much I can say to help ease your pain as I am sure I would be having the same problem. I do belong to the team "lost a loved one" and we are a very supportive team as we have all suffered losses of some form. The leader posted a URL for a couple books on Amazon by Ellen Guerst called How to mourn and one about laughing or smiling again. I haven't read them but plan to. Check our team out and see if it might be a fit for you.

    God bless and may the new year be easier and you can find some happiness especially to help the boys through their sorrow. Best wishes. I am continuing to send prayers to help you heal.
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    2889 days ago
  • JUDYAMK
    Mark, I do not know what to say to make things better. I do not think any one can right now, However; I want you to know I am praying for your aching heart & for the children.
    Judy
    2889 days ago
  • GOANNA2
    Hugs to you and your family. emoticon
    2890 days ago
  • BEFIT020
    emoticon to you & your kids. This has got to be such a difficult time of year!
    2890 days ago
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    May God Bless you and the boys during this difficult journey. emoticon
    2890 days ago
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  • PJBONARRIGO
    Thinking of you today and hoping that you can have a good Christmas. emoticon
    2890 days ago
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  • MEXGAL1
    What a beautiful tribute to your beautiful wife. I know it must really be hard on you and the boys. I am happy to read that you are getting some help. Very important.
    Many hugs, thoughts and prayers.
    Sallie
    2890 days ago
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    emoticon You are very blessing to have known such love! There is a shinning star looking down on you and your kids still loving you still emoticon
    2890 days ago
  • SKIRNIR
    All I can say is that I will keep you in my prayers. May God be with you during this trying time.
    2890 days ago
  • SLIMMERJESSE
    How lucky we were to have had such amazing people in our lives! That's what I try to remember when sadness and grief tidal
    wave me. I've lost so many loved ones
    recently, that it really has changed me a
    great deal despite getting on with my life.
    I'm glad you are going somewhere to
    talk about things. That's so important.
    Big hug and best wishes for happier days.
    They really would want us to be happy.
    2890 days ago
  • NEPTUNE1939
    God will bless your caring, Keep remembering the good times, they are blessings in themselves, Earl
    2890 days ago
  • MRFUZZ
    I am so sorry for you to be so sad! Sheri-Lynn will never truly be gone. She has you all here still, never forgetting her. I hope you are able to find some peace this holiday season. Sometimes it feels like the world can't, shouldn't still be going on when someone we love, loved so much has left. May God bless you and keep you in his arms. You are right. Sheri-Lynn wants you to be ok, be happy. Take care, hugs to you. emoticon
    2890 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/25/2012 9:54:32 AM
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