So very scared...in need of support!
Saturday, January 05, 2013
Not again.....another new job. This is a good thing it really is but I am so scared. And tired and resistant and just plain scared. As I have mentioned repeatedly it seems we move alot for my husband's work and that's great for the most part but it means I have to reinvent myself and adapt to new places and new jobs. This time around was really difficult given the current job market but I did recieve some offers and instead of going the easy route I took a job that looked to be different and challenging. Big mistake but I've kept at it while still looking. A really intriguing offer sort of fell in my lap and I've decided to take it. But I am scared. Of what? Change. Change. Change. And visibility. And being discovered a fraud. And it not working out and being left with nothing. I'm also afraid of the reaction I will get from my current company and am writing this when I should be writing my two week letter of resignation. I guess I feel somewhat guilty in leaving them with only two weeks notice. I haven't resigned from a job in this way. It has always been due to a move and I've been able to give ample notice and assist in transitioning a new person. But this time is different and after the final meeting yesterday when the job was formally offered and accepted they made it clear they needed me yesterday so two weeks notice it is.
As I read this over the negativity just slaps me in the face and I'm trying to figure out where that is coming from. This will be a good thing, and could be a great thing.
Help?!? I guess I need a good kick in the ..... and a shove out of the plane!