Tuesday, January 08, 2013
Over the past 15 years or so, I've been a member of many gyms. I started at Lucille Roberts when I was 15, and during the first year, I went extensively. Then as time went on, I kept going less and less, till I wasn't going at all.
Then, when I started college, my mom and I joined New York Sports Clubs, and we would go when she got out of work and it worked well. The trainers knew us, and it was an enjoyable experience. But once again, as time went on, we went less and less and I we ultimately cancelled the membership.
Then fast forward a few years (don't ask how many) and a few more gyms and I'm now facing something I've never faced before - gym anxiety.
I'm not sure why, but when I went to the gym in the past, I never had that "they're staring and laughing at me" feeling. Never. I put my headphones on and did my thing.
But now, I have this weird anxiety about going to the gym. It's like this voice is in my head saying "you've been away too long, you won't be able to do it" or "nothing you'll do will make a difference."
And I'm not really sure why those thoughts have started or how to turn them off.
This isn't a place that I want to be, this isn't a place I can be in for too long, so I really need to focus on getting out of my head and just doing it.
There really is no other option.