Still on the Horse
Sunday, February 03, 2013
I'm sorry for the last, frustrated, ranting blog entry.
Health isn't only measured by our weight and, in my case, I do not want my weight to dictate how I feel about myself. My goals are constant with health, and losing weight is a (needed) byproduct. With that in mind, I am going to forgo weighing myself for the month of February.
Because it pretty much destroys me when that little number does not change. So, I'm taking back my power. Screw you scale! I will not let you deter me this time. I will not let you be my excuse to continue my bad habits. I have hit a plateau. A flat space that I must cross before my weight loss can continue. I will not let a little number stop me from doing that.
I'll have to figure out another way to measure my progress for the month. Maybe measuring. Maybe just by energy level. I'm going to weight myself today as a baseline, and, with a good amount of work and a little luck, perhaps I'll see some progress on March 1st when I face the scale again. Because, by then, I'll be clear of this funk. Because it's my life on the line.
I have no more excuses.
I told my boyfriend about my frustration. I told him how it kills me to gain weight after working so hard. How I do not know what to do better at the gym, and I berated my failing diet habits. He let me go on for a little while. He let me get it all out. Then he looked me square in the eye and said, "Just promise me one thing. You won't quit."
Okay Alex. I promise.
To the gym I go. Happy sweating,
Not counting how many pounds to go. (....60....)