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Thursday, February 07, 2013

This past month has been overwhelming with fear, bewilderment and frustration not knowing what to do and how to do it. I feel like I am in the outer limits at times unsure of what is right and what steps to take next.

I am relying on God carrying me through this like in Footprints since the pralysis that sets in lately is a bit scary. I need to trust in a higher power that I will come out fine on the other side of this. I often want to fall apart and give up all this fighting each day but I know that is not an option if I am to have any self respect for myself and don't give it everything I got (though it seems I gave it all already and am now on what God and the angels are lending

So frozen in time it goes on yet I still think of how many more people have it much worse and are being handed sentences from life that have no end and are much more courageous han I fighting something they know will never get better and moving on with a smile and still being worthwhile human being to themselves and others. Please God give me the humility to see my blessings no matter what and not complain.

Thank you Spark Family for being there for me along with my Higher Power.
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    You will come through it as you trust in God to help you. emoticon
    2612 days ago
    Hang in there and if need be seek medical help. You owe it to yourself.
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    2615 days ago

    Stay strong, stay strong in your faith.

    Thanks for sharing!

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  • JILL313
    Hi Yvonne, I wish I understood exactly what your going through. . .I'm going to have to read your past blogs as I know you've had tremendous stress and problems with builders, contractors, lawyers, etc. It doesn't make a difference as to what others have to contend with as this is YOUR LIFE and problems that are bothering you so much right now. I'm not saying you aren't a very caring person as I know that you are. I want you to feel good again without all the stress your experiencing. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help. I know your belief in God is strong and keep praying for a resolution to this business mess so you can enjoy life more. I do feel for you and how this unfortunate situation is constantly on your mind and causing you so much emotional pain and stress. I'll be praying for you my dear friend. I do care about you.

    Much Love & Hugs,

    2617 days ago
    Honey, I am so sorry for how you are feeling, but you have every right to feel this way. I don't know when or where but there is light at the end of this tunnel.
    Don't think that you have given all of your self respect away. For you, that would be impossible to do. You are fine and gracious lady and yes, you may be living on what God and the angels have given you, but aren't we all. Just hang in there cause it will happen for you.
    You said you know that there are people that are worse than you are and you are 100% correct. I have a great friend who is about 15 years younger than I am and for a long time he worked but not at his dream job. So, he got into what he really likes to do. He plays guitar, writes songs and sings. Was in a group and decided to go out on his own. He just wrote a very beautiful, but very said song called "In My Dreams" (you can find it on my facebook). He discovered about a year ago that he has Lou Gehrigs disease and there is no cure. You lose your nervous system a little by little. Started with his legs, had to use a cane, then braces, now a wheelchair. It has attacked his wrists to some extinct, but he can still sing and play guitar. As months go by, he will not be able to do this, or eat or talk, breathe and if God is good He will take him before he has to be completely dependent on his wife of only two years. So, Yvonne, I think of ths guy often when I'm down and I see light, he only sees it "in his dreams". Love you, honey and God Bless! Noel
    2618 days ago
    You should speak to a councillor. They may suggest you need to speak to someone about anti-depressants. There is absolutely no shame in getting the help you need, no matter what it is. If you do have depression, it is literally a hormone imbalance making you feel this way, not something just in your head. Even if you are experiencing grief (not depression), starting with a councillor will help you work through things.

    I hope you get through ok!
    2619 days ago
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