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How do I learn to trust myself?

Sunday, February 10, 2013

So.....

I had a blind date yesterday. He was intelligent, funny and incredibly cute. We were weirdly compatible. However, I'm not sure if I felt that "spark", for lack of a better word. I know the easiest answer is to trust my instincts, but that's where I have problems. Ever since I broke up with my cheating ex, not only do I not know whether to trust me instincts, I'm wondering if I even have any instincts at all! It's sad to say, but I have no idea how I feel or what I want. Scratch that...I do know what I want, I just don't know how to get it.

On a positive note, I haven't had the urge to pig out all weekend...despite my rather scrambled emotions. I may not know very much right now, but I DO know that I won't let anyone or anything get in the way of the goals that I've set for myself. I'm steadily losing weight every single week and I am steadily gaining self-esteem every single day.

I know I have a lot of work to do but for the most part, I feel more content than I have in months. I am learning to love myself, although I can be very difficult to love at times. I'm also learning how to cope with my emotions without using food. I've also been exercising like a maniac, which has helped in so many ways. Not only does it help me physically, but it helps me feel so exhausted at the end of the day that I don't have the energy to eat or feel sorry for myself :)

6:00 on a Sunday ad I'm already ready for bed. Good thing, since I get up at 4 in the morning to do one of my two daily workouts.

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  • KLUTERACOON
    Give it time. Sometimes it's hard to decifer "what is gut instinct" and "what your brain is telling you" both are radically different. It's your gut that will tell you whether or not you're on the right track. It might be that you still aren't ready to meet someone new?

    Be patient someone will come along and sweep you off your feet and it will be when you least expect it!

    WOW!! 4am for a workout? You've got more balls than I do :)
    2816 days ago
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