How do I learn to trust myself?
Sunday, February 10, 2013
I had a blind date yesterday. He was intelligent, funny and incredibly cute. We were weirdly compatible. However, I'm not sure if I felt that "spark", for lack of a better word. I know the easiest answer is to trust my instincts, but that's where I have problems. Ever since I broke up with my cheating ex, not only do I not know whether to trust me instincts, I'm wondering if I even have any instincts at all! It's sad to say, but I have no idea how I feel or what I want. Scratch that...I do know what I want, I just don't know how to get it.
On a positive note, I haven't had the urge to pig out all weekend...despite my rather scrambled emotions. I may not know very much right now, but I DO know that I won't let anyone or anything get in the way of the goals that I've set for myself. I'm steadily losing weight every single week and I am steadily gaining self-esteem every single day.
I know I have a lot of work to do but for the most part, I feel more content than I have in months. I am learning to love myself, although I can be very difficult to love at times. I'm also learning how to cope with my emotions without using food. I've also been exercising like a maniac, which has helped in so many ways. Not only does it help me physically, but it helps me feel so exhausted at the end of the day that I don't have the energy to eat or feel sorry for myself :)
6:00 on a Sunday ad I'm already ready for bed. Good thing, since I get up at 4 in the morning to do one of my two daily workouts.