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He's just not that into me!

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Ugh! Another guy who keeps stringing me along. I'm not chasing him but according to my very dear (and brutally honest) friend John, he's just keeping me waiting in the wings. Like a sign from god, the movie "He's Just Not That Into You" is on. The funny thing is, I'm actually not really into this guy. Hard to explain.

Thanks for letting me vent about my personal life :) As for my weight-loss, I'm still plugging along. I'm very stressed about re-financing so I can get my ex off the mortgage and out of my life for good. I know I'll find a way to keep the house, but the whole process makes me have to face everything that happened and it's not pleasant. Don't get me wrong...I'm not still into him, but it still hurts to think about what he did to me. However, for the first time since I became overweight (3 years), I am NOT letting the stresses of my life dictate how I eat or how I treat my body. I'm still working out and losing weight and making healthy choices. I'm still exercising 2x/day and tracking my food. I won't lie...I've been tempted to go and buy a family-size bag of chips and pig out, but I know that's not going to make me feel any better.

Work has been absolute, total hell lately. I'm a social worker in a long-term care facility. Things have been really, really bad with the RN on one of my units. She's got serious personal issues that are making a hugely negative impact on her work. Everyone in administration is aware of it, but since they're all buddy-buddy, nothing is being done about it. Oh, wait, I lied...I'M getting stuck doing way more work. I don't mind helping out, but I have 2 units, totaling 100 residents and I don't have time to babysit. And the cherry on the sundae is that we're due for our state survey any day now. Yay.

I'm very proud of myself though, for not letting my work situation force me back into bad habits. I think the healthier lifestyle I've adopted have finally become HABIT. It's not to say that I'm perfect or that I don't have slips every now and then, but those slips seem fewer and farther between...and far less extreme!

I'm not sure if anyone else ever does this but...I seem to have "mood swings" when it comes to weight loss. Like, EXTREME mood swings. One minute I'll be amped up about it and literally the next minute I'll feel kind of deflated. The kicker is that I've been very successful! I'm down 43 lbs. What do you guys do for motivation during those moments when you couldn't possibly feel less motivated?

Again, thanks for letting me bitch and moan. You guys are the best!
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    I totally understand about the ex thing. I was cleaning out the house over the weekend and getting some of the rooms ready to sell the house and it made me start crying. The fact that this will no longer be my "home" is starting to hit home. The realization that I'm going from a 2 story 4 bedroom house to a 10 x 10 room is becoming more clear. But it's a new chapter for us and some steps forward. We will get through it.

    One day we will look back and think how silly we were for it all but for right now it's just about getting through it.

    It's funny how he's just not into us but it still irks us that he isn't even though you don't really care either.

    I'm soo glad your lifestyle is sticking! I'm in awe of you! There's no way i would be able to workout that much. It's hard enough finding time 5x a week. Yes I have mood swings too about my weight loss. Some days I could care less I'm soo proud of myself just for working out regularly and eating far better that I know my body will eventually catch up, then there are other days where I'm cursing my muffin top. I have come to realize everything effects everything. If I'm having a good day, my views on it are high if it's a bad day... well no so much.

    At one point I was struggling and I wrote a mission statement, of what I wanted to accomplish out of this year. It's on a huge board that is full of inspiration that I have in my room that I see everyday no matter what. Some days I notice it more than others. Every now and then I will reread the mission statement and it will help. Other days it's searching for new music that just sets off a spark. Maybe just get outside and take a walk that could be far more inspiring than most people realize.

    Anyway. I'm glad you are doing good!! :)
    2786 days ago
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    Hope your work situation improves soon! When I have motivation issues, which is rather often, I usually resort to a lower impact workout DVD, such as Leslie Sansone Walk at Home. I love her DVDs but need a little more amp up to get the calorie burn
    but when I'm in a slump, sometimes telling myself I can do that DVD that I really like (even though it burns less calories) can get me going again. And doing something is always better than doing nothing.
    2786 days ago
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