He's just not that into me!
Sunday, March 10, 2013
Ugh! Another guy who keeps stringing me along. I'm not chasing him but according to my very dear (and brutally honest) friend John, he's just keeping me waiting in the wings. Like a sign from god, the movie "He's Just Not That Into You" is on. The funny thing is, I'm actually not really into this guy. Hard to explain.
Thanks for letting me vent about my personal life :) As for my weight-loss, I'm still plugging along. I'm very stressed about re-financing so I can get my ex off the mortgage and out of my life for good. I know I'll find a way to keep the house, but the whole process makes me have to face everything that happened and it's not pleasant. Don't get me wrong...I'm not still into him, but it still hurts to think about what he did to me. However, for the first time since I became overweight (3 years), I am NOT letting the stresses of my life dictate how I eat or how I treat my body. I'm still working out and losing weight and making healthy choices. I'm still exercising 2x/day and tracking my food. I won't lie...I've been tempted to go and buy a family-size bag of chips and pig out, but I know that's not going to make me feel any better.
Work has been absolute, total hell lately. I'm a social worker in a long-term care facility. Things have been really, really bad with the RN on one of my units. She's got serious personal issues that are making a hugely negative impact on her work. Everyone in administration is aware of it, but since they're all buddy-buddy, nothing is being done about it. Oh, wait, I lied...I'M getting stuck doing way more work. I don't mind helping out, but I have 2 units, totaling 100 residents and I don't have time to babysit. And the cherry on the sundae is that we're due for our state survey any day now. Yay.
I'm very proud of myself though, for not letting my work situation force me back into bad habits. I think the healthier lifestyle I've adopted have finally become HABIT. It's not to say that I'm perfect or that I don't have slips every now and then, but those slips seem fewer and farther between...and far less extreme!
I'm not sure if anyone else ever does this but...I seem to have "mood swings" when it comes to weight loss. Like, EXTREME mood swings. One minute I'll be amped up about it and literally the next minute I'll feel kind of deflated. The kicker is that I've been very successful! I'm down 43 lbs. What do you guys do for motivation during those moments when you couldn't possibly feel less motivated?
Again, thanks for letting me bitch and moan. You guys are the best!