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blue eyes...NOT crying in the rain.....

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Today, despite the heavy rain and impending snow...has been alot better than yesterday...I was so down last night and feeling lost and angry.
Today, I realized I have to let this all go.
The past is lingering in my mind and it is just that, the past.
There is no going back, there is no finding a way to fix things. I can only fix things from right here, and maybe not even fix all things.
But I can try to fix my calories and I got in a workout...could have been better, more calories could have been burned.
But it felt good to get back to it.
And so now, I sit on the couch, under an electric blanket, getting ready to watch The Walking Dead and reading and nursing a sore foot.
But feeling pretty good.
I know I will have more days like yesterday and I know I will try to have even more better days like today. I look forward to going back to the doctor to have my xrays on my foot and to get my vitamin d level checked...only 18 days to go and I feel confident that my vitamin d is gonna be up.
I have been very watchful of the amount of vitamin d I am taking in supplement and the amount I am getting in food.
And while I did go over my calories a little today and my carbs...which is a little upsetting, I know I am getting back into my high protein....and protein is going to really help me when I get more heavily back into my workouts!!!!
So, rain on....I am snug as a bug in a rug and staying in.
And as a friend pointed out in her blog....its good for the seeds in the ground.
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  • MARTY728
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    2771 days ago
    Sometimes I have to tell myself about work-outs, "do it ugly if you have to, but just do it."
    Sometimes, the best goal is to just concentrate on what we can do and not feed the negative thoughts that are used to popping into our head. Can't change others, so why let them take up space we could be using for ourselves? KWIM?
    I absolutely LOVE the pic you put on the end of this post. One of the best ways I have found for picking myself up and encouraging myself (b/c we really do have to be our own best friend) is looking at sites like "Queen of Your Own Life" or other motivational visuals. You deserve a best friend that treats you with love, respect, honor, joy, compliments your strengths, that doesn't cut you down or discourage you from being healthy physically, emotionally, or spiritually. Be that best friend to yourself.
    Heck, give her a name if you have too until you can accept that she is part of YOU! (I know, sounds crazy, but sometimes that works.)
    Wishing you an awesome Monday, no matter what the weather is outside. Heck, that's the whole reason we live in houses, right? To be able to carry on despite the weather! Light some smell-good candles, put on the music, and stoke the fire (or wrap that blanket around ya!) Spring really is on it's way. I'm sure you've seen the geese, robins and buttercups, and even heard peepers a couple of times that say so. Trust it will be here! Even the maples are starting to turn that red-rust color in their tops!
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